Different

"are you okay?"

Leah pov

While at work"Love? Are you okay last night then i held you i saw that you had cut yourself?"he asked worried"no am not"i said sad in a soft voise

"Do you want to talk about it?"he asked"yeah but not here"i said looking into his eyes i could see that he was worried

"Come" he said as he moved his eyes motioning for me to come to the room.He started walking towards the room looking behind him makeing sure i was following him.ones we were in the room he closed the door and locked it he then covered the window with a blanket to make sure no one could see us. I started to get worried what was he doing or going to do

"Newt what are you doing?"is said in a scared voise " making sure no one can see us" he said "Why?"i said consurned

He didn't answer he cept paceing around the room walking up and down left and right while i just watched him"Newt?"i said but he didn't answer "Newt please stop your scareing me"suddenlly he shouted"Why did you do it?!why did you cut yourself!" "I...i...i"i studderd "Answer me!" He shouted again.i started to cry"Because it is hard being the only girl in a place with forty or fifty teenage boys that never seen a girl before.They think they can do whatever hey wanted to do to me all of them.The only person that can do whatever the want to me is you newt because i love you and you are the only thing keeping me from killing myself because i love you!!the last time i cut myself was before the maze when they took you away because i love you!!i cant explain how much i love you newt and im scared of all of them and if you shout at me i get afraid of you too."

"I...im sorry i didn't mean to scare you and i love you too and i just want to keep you safe and it hurt me to see you hurt"he said and suddenly i felt him kiss me on the lips for the first time ever i felt butterflies in my stomach

He looked at me almost as if asking if he could go on kissing me and maybe more.I nodded my head telling him to do it"i need you to do it newt i need it right now"i said as he kissed me.He picked me up and put me on the bed kissing me he was on top of me now as he was taking his clothes of he looked at me and asked"Are you sure?that i can do this to you.you want this right i dont want to if you dont" "i am sure" i said to him as he took off my shirt and bra when he got to my pants he looked at me"I wont hurt you ever you know that right" "Yes" i said as he took of my pants* you can imagian the rest yourself*

When we where done he said to me "you did great. Get some rest ok you have been thew anough"he said as he kissed me on the forehead and left going back to work

While i layed there and my toughts took over .what if he was going to be like all the rest of them only asking this one time and not the rest?did he really love me?was he useing me?did he only love me for my body?did he have a bet to see if he could sleep with me?
While thinking n fell asleep

Newt pov

Leah just got r*ped and what did i do i slept with her the next day.what the hell newt?did you really just sleep with that poor girl?did she really want it or was she just scared what i would do if she said no?i had to ask her .i felt bad that i did that to her but deep down i knew that i wanted it too.

I couldn't stop thinking about it so i said to the gardeners i was going to take the day off with leah they agreed and i ran up to the room barging in as if someone just died i could see she was shocked and then got scared i could see it in her eyes "Love are you ok you look scared what happend?did someone do something" i said confused and scared that she would say it was me she was scared of "i just didnt ecspect the door will open that quickly and i was scared because i had a lot of questions " she said "sorry didnt mean to scare you just had a lot of questions for you too"i said"I want you to be honest with me"we both said at the same time "you go first love"
I said to her "Are you gonna use me like gally and them and only ask this ones and just do it even if i say no i dont want to like a toy" she asked me my heart sank "no of course not if you dont want to i dont want to i want to let you feel safe and i understand you need someone you love to take care of you"

"I would do that and love you no matter what i dont care if you want to have s*x with me or not"i said "thanks "she said to me i stoped for a second and then said "Ok my turn i have a few " i said "Go ahade"she told me"So you said that i would do it even if you said no but my question was when i asked you if you wanted to did you only say yes because you were scared of what i would do if you said no or did you want to"i asked curiously"No i did want to i just mean if i say no but i did want to i promise" she reasured me"ok thats good that was my most important question my last one is are you scared of me?''i asked her she looked at me with pure shock in her eyes " no i just dont like it when you yell that makes me scared but you dont" "Good"
I say to her

"Wait. I have one more question" she said"Yeah" i said "Do you only love me for my body?because if i wasnt pretty would you not date me?"she asked"No i love you for your personality your body is just a plus" i said as we laughed "I took the rest of the day off for both of us so you can get some sleep"i said"great you should get some rest too you are always worrying about me so you sould get rest too" she said i walked up to her and layed on my back so she could rest her head on my chest i looked at her and said"Can i hold you love?" I asked "yeah sure no problem"she said smiling at me i held her in my arms my one arm under her holding her against me my other arm around her waist falling asleep

Finally kissed

With a little bit of spicy parts

Hope you enjoy