I don't know what's wrong with me.
My heart hurts.
Everything hurts now that I think about it.
It hasn't hurt this bad in a long time, only since me and my sister stopped talking.
Of course nothing will ever change between us, but right now I think it's the rockiest it's ever been and I know it's all my fault.
But sometimes I just wish I could put her into my head too. I can't explain why I am the way I am.
"Are you two still not talking?" Our mom turns in her seat at the island raising an eyebrow as I put my bag down.
I just shake my head and walk off to the fridge before closing it again, I feel so anxious I don't even want food right now.
"Well you need to sort it out with her y/n she's really upset."
I nod in response then walk back out then let out a sigh as I hear mom follow me.
Me and my sister are extremely close, there's only a year between us, her being older but definitely more sensitive. Her name is Imani. Mom named her that because it means faith. I'm pretty sure she's mom's favourite but I dont mind.
"mom ill speak to her later" I turn around and shake my head
"how long is this going to go on for until you finally resolve it?" I shrug In response then rum up the stairs to my room wanting to get out of this conversation as quickly as possible.
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later in the night I hear mom go into Imanis room, bidding her goodnight before doing the same to me.
I toss and turn for what feels like hours until I finally get out of bed and go to imanis room. Of course she's also not asleep.
"hi" I whisper and sit on the edge of her bed as she sits up. "I'm really sorry...I don't want to argue anymore...I know ive been a pretty shit sister lately"
"It's okay...you just- did mom make you talk to me or is this your doing?" Imani frowns skeptically.
"No, well yes earlier but now I came because I wanted to make up with you...want to be able to talk to you like normal I hate arguing and fighting" I push my lips out and look to the side.
Instead of getting a reply or myself saying anything more I pull my sister into a tight hug, falling onto our sides in her bed.
As much as we fight she is and always will be my bestfriend. She's my favourite person in the whole world. I just have a lot of trouble expressing it. Mom said I have a lot of things I need to work on so hopefully I change. I don't want to keep making peoples lives miserable. That's all it feels like I do right now. And I hate it so so much. I do wish I was different. That I could start over
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Hiiii, this is my new one shot book. I know there's not much Scarlett in it but i just wanted to write about something. Send requests - psa family line will probably be updated every two weeks or so maybe sooner and more frequent if I can write quicker.
