I need you MARJ

Im sorry

~2 days after~
I've been alone now for three days. I need Marjorie I NEED HER. I feel my self get upset. I messed everything up again I always fucking do. I rolled over on to my side look at the empty whiskey bottle. I'm a fucking idiot. I grab the bottle and look at it. Did I really drink the rest of that? I put the bottle back down and sit up. My head spinning. "I definitely drank that much," I whisper to myself. I slowly got up trying not to move too fast. I stubble over to the kitchen hunched over the sink . I feel myself gagging. I quickly reach for a glass and fill it with water. I chug the water and slam the glass down trying to regain my breath. "Ah fuck," I whisper. "Why do I still drink?" I ask myself. I know why I just don't want to... I stumble back to the sofa my phone pinged. Autumn? She never texts me. I read the message:

You're an idiot Reece. Marjorie's in shambles. She don't want to hear from you. Block her number! You're a dick! Fuck you. I will be over to see you at the nursery tomorrow. We need to talk.

I look at the message.autumn you don't have to remind me. I type back. I know I'm a dick. Tell Marjorie that if this is want she wants do to I will block her and not speak to her. I type quickly  tears in my eyes building up. I send the message and sit back down. I can't do this. I need Marjorie. Is she really going to end it I love her.... A million questions fill my head. My phone pinged again my heart sinks. A notification ~Gorgeous has blocked you~ my heart shattered. My first thought was... is she happy? I get up and stubble back to the kitchen open the wine fridge I take the bottle. I don't bother getting a glass. I open the cutlery drawer for a bottle opener. I saw the scissors and the knifes. They were calling my name. "NO!" I yell. "I can do this." I whisper I shut the draw, walk back to the sofa sit down with the bottle and take a sip. One more, two more, three more....

~back story~
Reece in the past has had problems with mental heath. He had an issue with self harm. He was not allowed to be left alone in a room with any sharpe objects. He had been clean for a year ever since he meet Marjorie he had no issues but now that might change.