"What's wrong with you?" Leah asked when I got in the car. I was annoyed as fuck and just wanted to go home. I didn't even know Syrus was going to be at this damn party and it definitely pissed me off when I saw him all up on Avani. I loved my best friend, but I'd be damned if she and Sy got together. But the less she knew about all of that right now, the better.
"I just wasn't in the mood anymore. I saw Sy, but to my surprise, he didn't even notice me 'cause he was all up on Avani's ass," I frowned. I laid it on thick too. Syrus did notice me, but he damn sure didn't look happy to see me. And I was invisible to his ass the rest of the night.
"Okay, but you stopped talking to him and aborted his baby without even mentioning the fact that you were pregnant to him. And on top of that, you never mentioned any of this to your so-called best friend. She doesn't even know who he is to you, so what are you irritated with her for?" I was about to say something, but she sure wasn't done reading my ass.
"You don't even know what's going on. They could be in the same class and just forming a friendship. Guys and girls can be friends you know. You're sitting here in your feelings, but truthfully, you really don't have a reason to be." I hated when she was right, but fuck her and her facts right now. I was still pissed.
Syrus and I got close when his mom started spending a lot of time with my dad. To this day, I still don't know if they were really together or not. We were in eighth grade and it was nice to be around someone my age. Not too long after, we started messing around and I ended up losing my virginity to him in ninth grade. My young ass didn't know anything, so when I didn't get my period I was happy as fuck.
I knew I was in trouble when my mom approached me about it and was making a big deal of me missing my period. I mean, she was crying and everything. When she took me to the doctor and they told me I was a few weeks pregnant, I cried right along with her. She scheduled me for an appointment to get an abortion and it happened a week after we found out. It was the worst pain I ever felt in my life and I never wanted to go through something like that again.
What Leah didn't know was that our mom didn't want me talking to Syrus anymore or even going over his house when our dad went. I had no control over not being able to speak to Syrus anymore and when I finally saw him, I wish I hadn't because I didn't want him looking at me the way he did tonight.
I was upset about the way things went down but at the end of the day, we were young as fuck and didn't know the first thing about taking care of a baby. I regret taking a life that didn't ask to be created because I opened my legs and didn't use protection, but on the other hand, I am kind of glad my mom made me go through with it.
"I don't want to talk about him anymore. We don't talk and that's that."
"Whatever," she said. She parked her car and had her hand on the door handle. Before she got out, she said:
"You need to tell Avani, Lathan. Otherwise, say they do start dating, are you going to be in your feelings everyday because you didn't open your mouth?" When I didn't answer her, she opened her door and got out, leaving me standing alone with my thoughts.
I rolled my eyes. I had a headache and just wanted to go to sleep. I wasn't going to tell Avani because some things are better left unknown, but I was going to do my best to keep her and Sy from getting close, that's for sure.
