billie eilish imagines

sorries

sorries is the best i could come up with 😭😭

mentions of rape

it had been two months since billie was assaulted by a complete stranger on her walk. two months where she and her fiancée hadn't had sex. two months she hadn't told her what happened. two months where she'd had nightmares every night. two months where she'd wake up terrified. two months her fiancée had asked what was wrong. two months without her nightly walk.

she had her back turned to the pregnancy test that laid on the counter. her period was late and she'd been feeling sick lately. she heard the timer go off and let out a sigh. she turned around, making eye contact with herself in the mirror. she anxiously flapped her hand as she tried to hype herself up. "c'mon, billie..." she mumbled. she took a deep breath and looked down at the counter. pregnant. "fuck!" she groaned, her eyes glossing over.

"she's gonna kill me." she sniffled. she backed into the wall and slid down it. she pulled her knees up to her chest as cries left her lips. "baby?" her fiancée, leilani called out, knocking on the door. "please don't be mad!" billie sobbed. the door opened and leilani quickly went to billie's side, pulling her into a hug. "why would i be mad?" leilani asked, running her fingers through billie's long hair. "did you relapse, baby?" she inquired.

"no." billie hiccuped. "then why would i be mad at you?" leilani questioned. "um, look at the counter..." billie mumbled, wipin her tears. leilani reached over to the counter and felt around, wrapping her hands around the stick shaped item. she pulled her hand down and looked at it. she dropped it on the floor. "you're pregnant?" she yelled, pushing billie off of her lap.

"please, i can explain!" billie wailed. "then do that!" leilani exclaimed, getting up on her feet. "um, i-i, um..." billie stammered, following her fiancée. "spit it out, billie!" leilani growled. "huh? have you been fucking cheating in me?"

"no!" billie screamed. "i was- i, um, i told- i told him to stop!" she cried, falling to her knees. "i told him to stop, but, but, he didn't," she mewled. "i told him to stop." she whispered. "oh, baby..." leilani cooed, picking billie up from their bedroom floor. "i told him to stop..." billie muttered. "i know, baby, i know." leilani kissed billie's forehead. "i told- i told him to stop." billie said, looking into her fiancées green eyes. "i'm not mad at you, angel." leilani said softly. "i told him to- to stop!" billie screamed. "i told him to stop,"

"i said stop." she sobbed. "i'm sorry for yelling at you, baby," leilani murmured. "i'm sorry i accused you for cheating on me..." she purred, sitting down on their bed. "i shouldn't have accused you, baby," she uttered. "why didn't you tell me?" she hummed, caressing billie's face. "scared." billie mumbled. "i'm not mad at you, baby," leilani said softly. "it's not your fault," she whispered. she softly kissed the tip of billie's nose. "i got you." she cooed.

"i said stop." billie sniffled. "i hear you, darling, i hear you," leilani mumbled. "is that why you haven't wanted to do stuff?" she asked. "mhm..." billie nodded. "can you tell me what you're scared of?" leilani inquired, her soft fingers rubbing billie's cheeks. "scared he's gonna find me again." billie hiccuped. "you're safe with me, baby." leilani murmured, softly kissing billie's nose. "scared you- you will hurt me..." billie mumbled. "oh, baby girl, look at me..." leilani said softly, earning billie's eye contact. "i would never hurt you, ever, okay? you know that, baby." she hummed, her eyes soft and gentle.

billie nodded her head, feeling leilani's hands softly caress her back. lower and lower. she didn't mind leilani's hand on her lower back. she didn't mind them on her ass either. she knew leilani wouldn't hurt her. leilani was a safe person. leilani stops when she says stop. leilani listened to and respected her boundaries. she didn't mind her fiancée's hands on her thighs either. her tummy was fine too. and her ribs. and her boobs. and the back of her neck. "n-nothing on my throat or over my mouth." she stated.

leilani listened. leilani slowly and gently laid billie down. she knew billlie would tell her to stop if she didn't want to. "you can always tell me to stop." she purred. billie grabbed leilani's face, pulling her into a kiss. leilani's hand slipped further and further down billie's body, lingering on her inner thigh, inching its way to billie's clothed crotch. she pulled away from the kiss and looked into billie's eyes for reassurance. closer and closer. she softly palmed her billie's crotch, causing billie to quickly shake her head.

leilani quickly moved her hand off of billie, looking at her with a soft smile. "it's okay, baby," she whispered. "we can wait," she cooed, kissing billie's forehead. "thank you for being honest with me," she smiled. "and thank you for telling me to stop." she hummed. "i'm sorry we haven't done stuff." billie frowned. "it's okay, baby. it's not your fault, okay? i'm not mad at you."