Billy Blue
So yeah, I met this boy on a dark night after searching for so long.
He had dark eyes and placed cigarettes between his lips because he thought it made him look cool.
He said he had no name, still figuring it out. So I called him Billy cause it goes with blue.
He wore hoodies and tried to convince me he didn't talk much, hanging around in the shadows, but his voice was loud in the dark.
I felt seen with him, even though he didn't really notice me.
Most evenings, he stood by the street lamp, watching me pass by.
I always thought it was part of his charm, like the times he told me in dark alleys he didn't know who he was anymore.
Told me behind closed doors he didn't know how he became like this.
Drained of life and dreams.
Said it was all good when he was eight; then nine happened, and all his dreams washed away.
Years passed by and every piece of the child he once was faded into the noise of the world, until he was empty.
He tried drowning, but then was confronted by a darker version of the thing he was running from in the first place.
He found writing because the fragments of the child in him still managed to push him.
Whispering to him that there's a light at the end of the tunnel.
But nights came when he cried on my shoulder, saying he didn't know anymore.
So I pushed him instead as we wandered through the dark.
But when you keep saying the same words over and over, their meaning strips away, leaving nothing but empty echoes.
I tried to fix him, but that's who he was, and who he would always be.
He believed no one could understand him because he wasn't that child he once was.
The one for the world.
He accepted that no one could hear him since he preferred drowning.
He accepted that he was invisible after spending long years moving past people like a phantom and that feeling felt permanent.
I'm not enough to change him since I'm not for myself.
So I accept losing him and moving on.
After all, he's just another shade of me, just like the child.
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Young Melodrama
Teen FictionMelodrama navigates the last year of high school in the fictional town of Creedlane, dealing with tragedy and dysfunctional relationships with family, friends, enemies, and the death of his favorite D list actor that leads him to reflect on his chil...
