The Seer of Iros

13.

Finch

I don't know how else to describe how I'm feeling other than elated. I am officially enamored with Lillian. She's no longer the woman I just dream about. She's very real and I woke up to her in my arms this morning. I'm now 100% convinced I have inherited my grandmother's rumored seer abilities and I need questions answered by my father.

I need to know what all of this means and how I'm supposed to manage it or even if I can manage it. Or is it just something a part of me that I'm just supposed to deal with? I am also now pretty convinced that my intuition with people and being able to "sense" their intentions, isn't a sense at all. It's knowledge I actually know their intentions. The more I dive into this line of thought the more I know I'm right. I'm never wrong about people and what I feel from them. I have Never. Been. Wrong.

I'm not trying to toot my own horn. Really thinking about it I just have never been wrong. It's how I can predict what the enemy is planning, it's how I've never lost a battle, it's how I worked my way up the ranks to commander. It's how right at this moment as I wait for Lillian to come out of the little store we're standing at where she saw a hat she thought she wanted that she'll come out empty handed, that she'll tell me she just feels it didn't look right.

It's how I know without a doubt that we're going to end up together. It's how I know I'm already in love with her and she has yet to realize it herself. But I'm a patient man and I'm going to give her time to figure it out on her own. I feel like we were fated to meet, fated to eventually become husband and wife.

Of course I don't know it all. For instance I don't know how she got that scar I saw in my vision last night. Yes, vision, I know now that they were never dreams, they were visions of what's to come between us and it makes me nervous knowing something in the future will scar her beautiful skin and that I for some reason was unable to prevent it. I choose not to dwell on this for now and think back on this morning.

The sex we shared was simply incredible and I long for more of that already. It's now midday. Once we left her bed she tugged me into her gigantic bathroom and we showered together. We washed each other and shared sweet kisses here and there. I'm still in awe and so struck by all of my revelations. I stayed pretty quiet just letting her tell me more about Jarvic as we ate brunch at a small cafe down the street from her parents estate. Then she decided to walk me around and show me more of the city. Some of her favorite sights like the view from the top of the theater that the owner let us climb the private stairs to the top of, or the streams full of vibrant goldfish in a private garden owned by the governor. I guess being a Hathaway has its perks.

All the while I've been in bliss and anguish with the knowledge that I have to leave her in the morning and that we'll be so far from each other especially once she travels to the capital a mere 4 days after I leave. I finally have her in my grasp and I'll have to say goodbye very soon.

The only thing that's keeping my level headed about leaving her are my visions that we end up together. I don't know how or when it will happen. I just know without a shadow of doubt that it's going to happen and that comforts me.

I can tell she's trying to hide it but that Lillian is uneasy about me leaving. I wish I could reassure her that we'll see each other again, that she has nothing to worry about. I just don't know how to reveal being a seer to her or convincing her that I actually know we are endgame.

I need to figure out this seer ability stuff for myself before I reveal it to her. I also have to keep reminding myself that we've only known each other for three days now. That it might freak her out knowing this about me. I have to wait until she truly feels comfortable until she can see for herself that we are destined to be together and that I am hers as much as she is mine.