Hi this is my way of trying to sort out my feelings and thoughts. I don't publish these to get pitty or seek attention i am doing it for my own sake so if someone is reading this then bear with me it is going to be my raw feelings and thoughts so there might be some spelling errors and something like this🤗
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It is Monday i have not really slept too much this night because today is the day i am going to the Jxdn concert in Amager Bio i have waited for this day in so long because his last Tour got cancelled it feels like almost 4 years i have waited even though i bought the tickets in april so in reality it has only been like 6 months, so even though i didn't get too much sleep and my alarm went off 4:45 this morning i feel really energized. But the concert does not start until 20:00 this evening so there is still 15 hours left until its starting and first i have to go to work. The time now shows 12:00 on my phone and i haven't been able to stop smiling all day i am off work in about an hour and then it is time to get home and get ready there is only 8 hours left before show start and i can't wait😄 the time now shows 15:00 so now there is only one and a half hour before me and my mom have to leave and i am feeling so happy in this moment and very inpatient i can't wait to get there but there is still 4 hours left before the concert starts😴🤭
There is now only one hour left and we got in to Amager Bio and found a place to stand we are really close to the stage😁✨
Tuesday 17/9-24
The concert yesterday was so fucking fantastic i haven't felt that extatic in a long time and so care free like my life finally felt whole and like it was on the right track i felt like i wanted to stay there forever i even ended up dancing and jumping around, we had to move to the back of the arena because my knee started hurting so that was kind of a bummer but even though i did not stay up close to the stage the whole concert it was so good and as i said before i enden op jumping and dancing because the arena was not filled all up wich also made et feel like a very intimate experience i can't even describe how it felt cause you had to be there to get the feelings and the energy that rushed through my mind and body. But back to today i took a day off of work because it got pretty late yesterday but i woke up this morning feeling a little like i have some kind of concert blues i want to go back so bad but at the same time my body still feels electric like i wanted to jump and dance around all the time when though i am very tired i have this feeling like i can do it all if that makes sense😂 but today is going to be all lazy so i already for tonight when we are going to banko again for the first time after a long summer break so this is the update for the day.
Wednesday 18/9-24
I still feel very happy and have not done anything but listening to jxdn since the concert but at the same time i have to get back to reality because i have to go to work today. I am at my lunch break and my brain have repeating the songs he played at the concert all day and i feel like i fell in love with him and his music on a whole new level than i did before like i get where he is coming from and i feel like i understands him so much more now even though i don't actually know him if that makes sense Julie your brain is very weird these days😂
I have gotten home from work and i feel like a headache is on its way and my face is burning and is all read like when i get those very bad headaches i am actually a little concerned cause it has happened a lot lately...
Thursday 19/9-24
I feel like all energy has left my body i am so fucking tired and i have so many things i need to do but i can't get out of my bed.. the time is now 10:30 i managed to get ready and go out with my dog but i have been crying a lot this morning and i can't quite put a finger on what is wrong but i feel like something has changed since the concert like i am about to change or something i don't really know how but i feel different and i think i need to figure out what it is so i am going to publish this and then i am going to update again in a couple of days and remember it is alright to not feel okay all the time cause as Jaden said i one of the interviews he did life happens go pet a dog🫶🏻✨
