First of all i have to say happy sad October month 🍂🖤✨ (if ykyk)
So today has overall been pretty good, i have been to work for the first time in over a week because i have been sick. When i got off work i got home and did my thing and waited for my mom to get home, the first thing that happened when she got home was she was mad about something that happened at work cause she fell or something but she ended up taking it out on me, it made me feel bad but i told her she could not do that cause it was not my fault she have had a bad day at work, we ended up getting over it so it was like whatever.
Later we were going out and we took our bikes to the place we were going, when we were going home i got some problems with my bike the pedal arm decided to go loose for the third time and i said to her that i could not drive it the rest of the way home, she got mad and was like "i have to get home because i am getting up early in the morning so i have to get home fast so i can go to sleep" and then i said to her that i also wanted to go home so i could go to bed but that it was not my fault that it had broken down, she enden up yelling at me that i had to try and ride it carefully the rest of the way home, so i was lightly steping on the bad pedal while stepping normaly on the other afraid that it would fall of and i would end up getting hurt. All the way she was being mad at me and my pedal ended up falling of so i had to walk the rest of the way home, while my mom was driving slowly In front of me while she was yelling at me that i have to help a little more with cooking if we should be able to do things like this and that se was the one that have to wake up before me in the morning. While all of this was happening i told her several times that she could just go and drive the rest of the way home but she did not listen until i have told her for the sixth time or so.
At this point i was very mad, i was mad at her, mad at my bike and overall just mad at the whole situation, so when i got home she was busy saying hi to our dog so i decided to go in the bathroom and do my thing so that i could go to bed, but that also ended up making her mad and she started yelling at me once again🙄 at this point i was over it so i just laid down in my bed trying not to start crying but i was sooo mad that i could feel my own heart beat very hard in my chest and now i am laying here unable to sleep so i thought why not take the opportunity to get some of it out of the system by writing it down. I know it is messy but it is written all raw and with all emotions still fresh.
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Just a reminder i don't publish all of this the get pity or anything like that i am doing this for me and no one else
