Hoonki oneshot

Because of me..

TW : Suicide, murder, a little bit of blood

POV Sunghoon
I just wanted to know why he's been so depressed lately but.. my words were so harsh for his sensible heart that he.. I look at myself in the mirror crying my heart out, the tears burning my cheeks. Why did I say that ? Because of me he's no longer here with me.. my angel. All of my world fell upon me when I heard the news, Ni-ki Nishimura is dead. It's been two days but my position remain the same, I've been here for two days already but I can't look away of my fucking face. It's my fault, it's this fucking face who have said all this things to him. I punch myself hardly on the jaw and continue crying. I can't forgive myself, I will NEVER forgive myself for that. 

FLASHBACK BEFORE NI-KI DEATH (POV NI-KI)
I'm so happy with Hoonie hyung !! I love him soooo much ! But Sunoo hyung.. he's mean with me and I don't really know the reason, it makes me depressed. I'm on the couch waiting for Sunghoon, he come home at 6pm and it's 5pm so I have 1 hour left ! I grab my phone to post a quick selfie but I stop when I read the message that just come up in the notification. I open the conversation and feel my tears rise rapidly in my eyes.

Foxie hyung ~ 
- You should die Riki. Nobody truly love you and Sunghoon love me. You're stupid and ugly, I hate you with all my heart. You should not even be born. 

I come to throw my phone violently against the wall, his words hitting directly my heart. I run to my room and locked the door behind me. What did I do to him for being so fucking mean. I didn't know he was in love with Sunghoon.. When I open my eyes, I hear Sunghoon voice in the kitchen. What ? It's been already 20 minutes that I cry silently against the door. I open the door and I fall nose to nose with my darling. He take my two arms in his hands, analysing my face.
S : Baby ? What's wrong ?
N : It's nothing..
S : Riki I know when you're feeling down and right now you're like really sad.
N : Please don't ask questions..
S : I need to know ! Tell me what happened !
N : No ! Leave me !!
S : Fuck ! You're so annoying !! Why can't you tell me ! Did you cheat on me !
N : What.. ? 
S : I'm so sick of this, you're being really boring lately.
N : H-hyung..
S : What ?!

I look at him in the eyes, the tears flowing on my cheeks. His words hurt like a knife have stab my heart. No it can't be real, all of this is a dream.
N : No no..
S : Riki ?
N : Why do you say that to me ?
S : I..
N : I DON'T WANT TO SEE YOU AGAIN !!

I run outside and go as far away as possible. All of this have to end, I can't live with all of this words in my head. I can't live.. I can't.. I..

BACK TO THE PRESENT (POV Sunghoon)
I look at my phone when I hear it ring and decline the call. I sight when the person call again, I put it against my ear and don't say a word.
Jay : Hoon ?
S : ..
Jay : Hoon I know it's really hard for you but we want to be here for you. Please let us come at your house.
S : Who's us ?
Jay : Jungwon, Jake, Sunoo, Heeseung and Wonyoung.
S : No.
Jay : Why ?
S : I don't want to see so much peoples.
Jay : If you want I come alone with Jake only ?
S : Heeseung can come too.
Jay : Okay we come soon. Bye Hoon and thanks

After 10 minutes, the bell ring and I hear voices enter my house. I sight and join my friends in the living room. Jake come hug me as soon as he sees me. 
J : I was missing you so much..
S : I know.. I'm sorry that I didn't respond to you.
J : Don't apologize, I understand buddy.
H : So why not the others three ?
S : I just don't want to see Ni-ki's bestfriend and the others two.. I don't really know.
Jay : It's ok, you don't have to see everybody. Jungwon understand that you can't face him.

Jake go at Heeseung side and we all sit down on the couch. I sight when I hear my phone ring again. 
S : What ?
Sunoo : I have to tell you something.
S : Say it.
Sunoo : The day Riki died.. It was because of me.
S : Huh ?
Sunoo : I was harassing him because I liked you.
S : W-what ?
Sunoo : I'm sorry. Really sorry, I didn't meant to push him past his limit.
S : WHAT DID YOU SAY TO HIM !!
Jay : Hoon calm down..
J : What happened ?
H : Wow are you okay ?
Sunoo : I've been telling him that nobody loves him and that he should never been born..
S : I'M GOING TO KILL YOU !

I get up and run outside of the house, I hear Jake call my name but I'm going directly at Sunoo's house. I quickly open the door and search for him everywhere just to see him on his bed with a knife in his hands
Sunoo : I'm not dumb. Forgive me please..

I come to take the knife easily from his hands and punch him in the face. I grab his hair and put the knife against his throat.
S : WHY ! WHY !!!
Sunoo : Don't kill me please.. I beg you for forgiveness..
S : SHUT UP !! I HATE YOU ! I FUCKING HATE YOU !

I feel my head spin and without thinking twice I cut his throat, the blood splattering everywhere. I breath heavily and step back a little. I will never regret this. My life was already dead so. I take my phone and dial the police number. I put it against my ear and it ring two times before someone speak.
P : Police, what's the problem ?
S : I just commited a murder.

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Okay it's sad and depressing but I don't know what to write. It's not so good but I did my best. Love you all.