The guardian chronicles : Nirvana (Todoroki Shoto x Uzumaki Naruto)

Chapter 17

What is the point of getting out of bed?

It was a question that Naruto rarely faced. She had never liked staying at her apartment, not when there was no one to talk to and no one to actually take care of her. But there were a few days where she did not have the energy to get up from her bed and face the day. Once she told the Hokage about her problem and he sent her to the medics to get a check up.

They told her that she was just being lazy and should just suck it up.

But I can't suck it up today. Naruto tried to force herself out of the bed. She needed to go to the training field and wait for Kakashi-sensei with Sakura and Sasuke. Not that there would be much of a point, when Kakashi-sensei is three hours late and Sakura just talks to Sasuke. If she goes then she would just either be ignored, yelled at or glared at.

Yeah, Sakura would be overjoyed at the fact she has more time with her precious Sasuke-kun. Beside if Kakashi-sensei did turn up and they did a mission then he would end up scolding her for some silly mistake. It is like he thinks I am the problem when we have a bigger problem. Naruto tried so hard in her missions. She tried to keep her more rude thoughts to herself and pretend it didn't bother her how much those old ladies glare at her.

Sure she makes it a competition with Sasuke but he looks down on her. He has everyone fawning over him from the girls, who have crushes on him, to the boys that wanted to be him. If Naruto could just win against him then people might start to acknowledge her.

It never helped that Sasuke taunted her about being slow when it came to their missions. How he constantly reminded her of how she made the silliest of mistakes. Naruto hated him so much for it.

When Naruto looks back, she knows it wasn't hate that she feels but frustration. She knows Sasuke has always been the more talented one, the more loved and the better one between them. She hates being second best because Naruto wanted to be perfect in her work. She spent more time focusing so much on the big things that she forgets the tiniest details.

But right now, she just felt exhausted and furious with the boy. Why did Sasuke always tells her about her mistakes but never tells Sakura about her own weakness? Sakura might have scored higher in their theoretical exams but she was the problematic one. One day Sakura would get them killed because...it is always about Sasuke with her.

They needed to rely on her when it came to their missions and Naruto doesn't think she can rely on Sakura.

It was not about the lack of clan that worried Naruto. She never gave a shit about the capabilities of what a clan kid could do and a civilian kid could do, but Sakura always focused on her pretty-pink hair and her brains. Yeah because she got admirers and she wants to keep them. Naruto doesn't resent her for that part. She doesn't understand how crushes or love works but...Naruto still remembers what Sakura said to Sasuke.

'She always come between us,' Even now the memory plays like a movie in Naruto's mind. She never meant to listen in but she wanted to tell Sakura that it hadn't been Sasuke, but her. Her teammate deserve to know the truth so she doesn't have a rose-tinted view of what Sasuke was like. "It is because she was brought up right."

Even though it had been weeks since the incident, Naruto still feels the pain and anger from those thoughtless words because...who the hell are you to talk about my upbringing? And do you know anything about your precious Sasuke? Naruto took a deep breath and furiously shook her head at her negative thoughts. She brought the blanket over her head and closed her eyes.

"It is because she doesn't have any parents," Naruto felt the ache in her heart get bigger and she wanted the memory to stop playing in her head. If it continued then she definitely would never go to the training field. "She doesn't have to answer to anybody even, and it makes her completely selfish!"