The guardian chronicles : Nirvana (Todoroki Shoto x Uzumaki Naruto)

Chapter 18

Hours had passed since Naruto killed all those people and only now did Todoroki left her apartment, having only left when Aizawa came to her apartment. Her teacher came into her apartment with his hair a mess and lips pressed into a tight line. Don't leave me with Aizawa-sensei. The words were stuck in her throat as if it did not want her to scream those words out loud.

Naruto sucked in a deep breath. Her blue eyes avoided looking at her teacher and focused on her hands. No blood stained her hands but it still felt disgusting to her. The rust scent that used to cling to her hands disappeared, barely a reminder of what happened, yet her nose still smelt the rust scent. Her blue eyes still see the stains that decorated it, even though Naruto scrubbed herself clean to the point that her hands were no longer smoothed.

'You are a monster.'

Her body trembled but Naruto gripped her fingers, digging it to the point that Naruto felt just pain. Pain reminded her of the present. Forget about her. She chanted those words in her mind as Aizawa took a seat on the sofa. That woman lived in Konoha. Not here. A bitter old woman, Naruto tried to remind herself.

"You are a monster," a voice whispered in her head. "You killed all those people without even thinking of a better way to do things."

"I had to do it." Naruto screamed. "Eri-chan would never live her life to the fullest if I allowed that monster to live."

"Did you do it for Eri? Or did you do it because you wanted the Third Hokage make that bitter old lady pay for all those cruel words to you?"

Naruto's body trembled. The Hokage might be a dictator for Konoha but his actions could not be thoughtless. The Matron cared for the other kids. She gave those kids a home, comforting them when they wanted it. To some of those kids, the Matron was the only mother they knew. Murder her then the smiles on her fellow orphans would disappear.

"Uzumaki, can I talk with you outside?"

Black eyes stared at her bright blue eyes. He flickered his eyes from her eyes to the nails digging her hands. He pressed his lips into a thin line. Did he know? She shook her head. Blond hair fell over her eyes and Aizawa let out a sigh.

"Uzumaki, we are going to have a talk whether you want to do it or not." Aizawa stood up from his spot and looked over his head. Black eyes searched her. Not in intimidation, thankfully, but more in a gentle way.

She didn't deserve it.

Naruto loosened her grip on her hand and pushed herself up from the couch. She walked over to the balcony, where Aizawa-sensei stood. If he interrogated her then a lie must be spoken. The truth must be hidden, never to be revealed to anyone.

Lifeless eyes stared right back at her and Naruto's breath hitched.

"Are you okay, Uzumaki?" Aizawa placed his hands on top of her shoulder and he looked down at her. Not, funnily, in a scolding way. More of a gentle way. "Do you want to talk about what happened? Do you know why you were kidnap?"

Tears burned behind her eyes but Naruto bit her tongue. She heard the question a thousand times today. Are you okay? Why did these people ask? Team Seven never asked her. A nuisance. A bother. That was what Naruto was to people.

Not to everyone. Iruka-sensei and Hinata-chan cared for me. Hinata used to stutter and laugh at all the silly jokes Naruto made. The antics, she made to get attention, always brought a smile to Hinata's face. When all the teachers pretended Naruto didn't exist, Iruka-sensei brought her ramen. Wasn't that care?

She didn't know anything anymore.

Killing bad people was acceptable in Konoha. The job description of a shinobi required they killed. A kunoichi murdered their opponent. People supported it. Here, villains deserved the right to live. No matter how terrible the deeds were, killing them was unacceptable. But what if these villains escaped? What do they do then? No one talked about it here.