Lord Jesus, You chose to be called the friend of sinners. free me from my sins. and bring forth a harvest of love, holiness, and truth.
Amen.
A. POV
I was sitting in my office, you know, doing the usual mayor stuff signing documents, checking on the latest projects pero like, in the middle of everything, I suddenly find myself staring out the window. And boom, naisip ko si Risa. We had this no strings attached setup, purely fubu lang talaga dapat. Pero, lately it feels so different. The way she cares for me, how she just gets me... parang I'm starting to catch feelings na, and it's messing with my head. Like, I know the rules of the game, right? We're supposed to keep it chill, walang emotions, pero here I am, thinking about her in the middle of work. Kaya minsan, I'm like, 'Am I really falling for her?'
So there I was, sitting pa rin in front of all these papers, pero my mind is like 100 miles away. I can't stop thinking about Risa, like, the way she smiles, the way she's there for me kahit walang label. It's weird, kasi we agreed na casual lang lahat no commitments, no feelings, no drama. Pero parang nag-iba na, bro. Like, every time we're together, it's not just about, you know, the physical stuff anymore. It's deeper, mas may connection, and I'm not sure if I'm ready for that.
I keep telling myself na it's just a phase, na maybe I'm overthinking. Pero the way she holds me, parang may ibang meaning na. And it's scary, kasi what if ako lang 'to? What if I'm the only one na nakaka-feel ng ganito, tapos siya, chill lang? Parang I don't wanna ruin what we have, pero at the same time, I can't just ignore na I'm slowly falling for her. Ayun, I'm back to staring out the window, trying to figure out what to do. Should I tell her? Should I just let it slide? Or baka I'm just confused and overreacting? But man, these feelings are real, and it's getting harder to pretend na walang nangyayari inside my head.
As I continue staring out the window, parang the weight of everything hits me. Like, this isn't just a random fling anymore, at least not for me. I catch myself smiling when I think about her like those random moments na she'd do something small but super thoughtful. It's weird kasi we didn't sign up for this emotional attachment, pero here I am, lowkey catching feels.
The more I think about it, the more I realize na maybe it's not just me being confused. Maybe there's something more between us. Pero at the same time, I know the risks. What if I tell her, tapos hindi pala siya on the same page? Ayoko naman to lose what we have now, pero keeping these feelings bottled up isn't exactly fun either. Every time we hang out, I notice the small things, like how she knows exactly how I like my coffee, or how she's there for me kahit pagod siya. It's like... is this still part of the no strings attached deal? 'Cause it sure doesn't feel like it anymore.
So now I'm stuck. Do I just go with the flow, or do I lay it all out? Kasi I'm starting to feel like if I don't say something, I might regret it. But if I do, baka I ruin the whole thing. It's such a tricky situation, and honestly, I never thought I'd be in this spot, feeling things I promised I wouldn't.
Bigla na lang nag-ring yung phone ko habang nakatitig pa rin ako sa bintana. Nakita ko pangalan ni Risa sa screen, and for a second, my heart kinda skipped a beat. Hindi ko na pinatagal, sinagot ko agad.
"Hey, baby," I answered casually, trying to keep it cool, kahit deep inside medyo may halo nang excitement.
"Hey love, sunduin kita later, okay? We'll hang out. You know, just us," Risa said, and I knew exactly what she meant by just us. Her voice had that playful tone, pero alam ko na din it's more than just casual ngayon.
