Love Hurts (Lesbian Stories) *Completed*

The Real Me

Kylie

Dear_______,

My life is perfect. Ok so I know that we get told that you can't have a perfect - since nobody is perfect - but if you could have a perfect life; this is mine. I am one of the most popular girls in school, I have the best boyfriend ever and my parents let me have whatever I what. Well providing I don't overuse my credit card - oh and I have twin brother - he's cool to hang with. So my life is perfect well..... except for one thing.

I'm a lesbian.

Now, now I can already see the mixed reactions from you all - the frowns the angry yells and then to those who aren't really bothered by it. Yeah this is where my life gets complicated, you know I have a boyfriend so, you're all probably thinking why? Well he asked me out, in front of everyone in the lunch hall, he stood up on our table and asked me. I couldn't have said no - since that would have just attracted moe attention to me.

Yes I flourish in attention, but some attention I don't need, like people asking me why I refused to date the hottest badass in school. Starts making a bit more sense now don't it, how amazingly complicated one persons life can be, because of how others react.

We've been dating for a year now, and not once have I ever caved into temptation...well that might be a white lie. But when you go out clubbing with him and a few of his mates, who go to a different school than you, I nearly always end up losing them. Because most of the time, he forgets he's actually brought me along - so yeah that kinda hurts Tom.

Sometimes the drive to cheat on him was sickening, I may or may not have cheated o him, but lets face it; not even I'm perfect. So yeah I made mistakes and the once that I will be making today will be a mistake. And yes I already regret what I will put those I love through - the pain people caused me began to get too much - so I made my escape; shortly after this letter actually.

Anyhow whoever you are reader, you are reading my letter, a letter to myself actually but I couldn't bear to write my name at the top. I am already crying, as quietly as I can so I don't disturb Shane, Mum or Dad. Then once I wrote the letter it will be taped to my box - there are two boxes actually both have the same footage in. The reason...well I'm sure as my story unfolds you'll find out how I changed.

But reader I fell in love with my bestfriend Hanna - I knew she could never be mine...not really. Whatever we had could never be something because the whole school found out about my secret, they teased me and ridiculed me, making me feeling worthless, like I didn't belong.

Before I do what I am about to do I will run to their houses and leave a box by both doorsteps, ring the doorbell and flee. But for those who are like me, Hanna and Yasmine (you'll get to know them rather well), don't be afraid. I wasn't strong enough to survive but you are - you can get through this - because I didn't. Be brave and be strong - Tom, Hanna, Shane I am sorry - so very sorry. I no longer felt happy or dafe so I ended it; with pretty pink pills.

I will always love you three,
Kylie
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AUTHOR NOTE

Sooo yes this story has lesbians involved - deal with it. It also involves suicide,
self-harming and bisexual characters. If you don't like this, agree with this then don't read anymore or if you do, don't leave hateful comments. I did mke it clear before it all began. Secondly if you get easily upset then please remeber the nature of this story - it is saddening. But I think the saddest part is that this happens in real life, because these people are made to feel ashamed of who they are. In my opinion no one deserves to be ashamed of who they are, yeah they are different, but we deal with it and move on with our lives. Well I do.

Anyhoo this chapter is dedicated to JayJayreed04 for being who she is and not being ashamed of that. So well done Jaydn! Kylie is dancing round on her cloud for people like you. Love you if you read it. Oh and by the way - I am straight. So I may be a bit bad at portraying any love scenes that happen. xoxoxoxox