Struggles

Mr Nice Guy - chapter 2

We had about an hour or so left of the double lesson, so i stuck my headphones in and got on with my essay on what inspires my photography.

I'm way too emotional and cheesy so this essay is totally not what shes going to be expecting.

"i'm going to break down these walls i built around my self, i want to fall so in love with you and no one else" Oh the irony of this song. That's the complete opposite of my feelings

i need my walls

I don't have time for love

i felt a stern tap on my shoulder, so i turn around, i swear to god if any unnecessary bitch wanted to mess with me and tap on my shoulder to piss m-

"Do you have a spare pen?" Ashton said pleedingly

oh.

"sure?" i spoke.

i handed him over a brand new pen.

oh boy i thought to myself as i turned around.

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The day went pretty fast after that, except lunch, god was i embarrassed it went a little like this.

As i walk through the halls to the cafe i hear quite snickering.

kids will be kids right?

or did i do something, i quickly become paranoid and make a u turn towards my locker until i bump into the one and only, Ashton who has a big grin on his face.

"What" i stated, clear irritated by his presence

"so, i kinda hate to be the one to tell you this but, you um..."

"I um?" i repeated.

"i don't know how to put this and my immaturity levels don't help me at all in this particular situation but between me and you, mother nature hates you right now" and just like that he walked away bursting into a fit of giggles along the way.

i have no idea what hes going on about, mother nature? i swear to god if this is some kind of jo-

oh

i quickly make a turn for the nearest girls toilets and enclose myself in a stall.

look down and oh, there it is, a gift from the gods.

i clean myself up, do what i got to do and tie my plaid shirt tightly around my waist to ensure nothing is showing.

so that happened.

And now i'm sitting on my bed listening to depressing music, crying about the pain and drinking salted caramel tea.

you know, the usual

*knock knock*

L e a v e Me A l o n e

i slam down my tea and answer the door with an expression on anger and sadness. im feeling neither of those emotions right now, but hey, first impressions

"your pen" Green eyes says with a glorious smile on his face

"okay" i said sternly while going to slam the door right on his annoyingly beautiful face

when he sticks his foot inbetween

"Not so fast, we should hang" he suggests

"Good one" i fake laughed, now really going to shut the door

"okay, here's the deal, i lost my dorm room keys and they cant get me another copy for a few hours and the guys have gone out for a drink and you only live a floor below me so here i am and i have no place to go for a few hours and you seem friendly, kinda? i mean i did put a ball through your window and point our your bleeding vagina in front of a hall-

"okay okay,that's enough rambling just get inside" i said trying to sound annoyed but inside i was jumping for joy

i mean yeah he did put a ball through my window

pointed out my period

but come on..hes cute?

"i was actually going on a run right now" i pointed out

"sweet, ill come with?" he suggested

"I mean sure" i smiled "let me just go change

i close the bedroom door and break out into a smile

hes just cute, i don't like him or anything, i'm allowed to gawk over his looks.

i change into a sports bra, tank top and yoga bottoms and slip on some old running shoes and tie my hair up in a bobble. I look like hell but who have i to impress? its just Ashton. no one special i lie to myself.

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were on out second lap round the track and i have myself a slacker

"can't handle the pace, green eyes?"

"what did you just call me?" he smirked

"in a neutral way" i confirm giving him a disapproving look.

"we should take a break" he breaths out coming to a halt at a bench taking a seat

i sit myself next to him

"sure, slacker" i wink

"funny." he said in a sarcastic tone "so, tell me a little bit about yourself, becca" he questioned

no

"why" i sighed

"because you intrigue me, you hate me, yet put up with me today and you're very quiet so you hold a lot in, correct?"

shit

don't do this

don't make me spill my heart out and regret it like i did with him

"well you will be clearly disappointed to know i don't have anything to hide"

liar

"well on that note i'm going to see if they got my key yet" he got up to leave but stalled "Oh and Bec, i'll figure you out" he stated confidently before strolling down the gravel path way to the gates.

don't do this He this last time and it didn't end well and now i'm just afraid.

walls Becca, remember those walls, i kept telling myself

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"hi mum" i said into the speaker phone

"Hi, how are things, you settled?" she asked

"yeah, i've had my first day today, wasn't so bad" i spoke.

"good to hear, any new friends?" she questioned

"Not really, i've spoken to some guy a cou-

"no boys, not after what connor did" she said sternly

"first of all mum, i've known him two days and i wouldn't like him anyway. I'm not here for boys and just so you know, no boy can ever do what Connor did, he took my virginity for a bet, its gone, its not like anyone else can take it from me" i snapped with tears in my eyes at the memories

"Don't talk like that to me, lower your voice, have a nice time, call me in a few days" she then ended the call

wow okay.

she doesn't know anything, He's Ashton, i've known him for two days and to my conclusion hes a stuck up, yet attractive son of a bitch so no, i don't and never will see him that way. I peel myself out of my clothes and into a hot shower. After freshening up i hop into bed and place my phone on the side table.

closing my eyes trying not to think of Connor.