September 20th

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I feel like a burden
I am a burden
I have nothing to offer
Nothing to give
I'm nothing but a burden
I can't get a job
I barely have money
She doesn't say it
But I know she's tired
Feeling like she's being used and abused again
Even though that's not my intent, not at all
I tell everybody that I'm trying but I can't in the slightest do anything for me
I have nothing
I have no one
Just me and Him
Him and me
I'm trying, truly
I just don't know how to be
My life has been anything but the ultimate dream
It's always been a fucked reality, a cold midsummer's dream
No lover
Hardly any friends
Always misguided
Never finding the arrow
Never truly grounded
I need to keep moving but I don't know where I'll end
Whether it's stuck in this nobody town or somewhere new
I need to find an answer
Or I'll miss the call
I wish I could vanish into a novel, have an adventure
Fight for what I believe in
And be the hero I'm meant to be without weighing down those who love me
Instead of saving me
I'll be saving them
That's how my story will end
Should end
But instead I'm stuck here
Going nowhere
But in a circle
Repeating and eating

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