SWASAN- Be My Beloved!

|4. He is the best!|

Swara's pov

"Say it and it will happen. Don't think too much!" he said and the determination in his eyes made me feel intimidated. He looked like he would turn the world and he was only waiting for my words.

I gulped my tears looking down as I couldn't stop thinking about the moment when Ragini pushed me in river. "I.. I really don't know!" I whispered looking at my mehendi.

"Is there anything you are sure you don't want?" I heard his voice and looked up. "Laksh, revenge on Ragini, bringing the truth out. Is there anything in this you are sure you don't want?" he asked.

"I don't want Laksh or any revenge on Ragini", I said and he smiled a little, "I expected it. Aren't you the little Mother Teresa who is going to sacrifice her happiness to serve others?" his voice oozed with sarcasm and I sighed joining my back to the swing and settled myself comfortably.

"I just don't want a married man and you know I don't want to spend my time in destroying others, I will rather have it for myself. My time is too precious!" I said mocking him and he shook his head, the smile not leaving his face.

"The satisfaction you get to give pain to the person who hurt you is precious too, you won't get it", he said. "Fine stay away from your revenge plan and live your life happily for few days, if you still believe revenge and negative feelings are more worth than your positive feelings I will agree to you!" I said and he stretched his legs to the swing resting them near me. I glared at his feet and then at him.

"Your life is spoiled and still all you care is whether I drink or whether I take revenge. Open your eyes, your goodness already took away everything from you Swara", he said softly this time with no sarcasm.

"Didn't you tell me I will get everything I want just few hours ago? Then give this to me, give a chance to yourself away from these negative feelings. All I am saying is give few days to yourself, try to live forgetting about your revenge. If you are not happy you can always come back to this path. But it is not possible for you to ever come back to a positive problem free life if you do end up taking your revenge", I said confidently. He looked at me silently for few minutes.

"You are really taking advantage with the words I gave you few hours ago. Had I not seen how crazy you can get by jumping in the river I would have never agreed to you!" he said annoyed and I bit my inner cheeks to stop smiling. Oh boy I did not attempt any suicide! The day he finds out, I am in some serious trouble!

"But then everything you ask is related to me. What do you even want in your life? You don't want Laksh, You don't want revenge on Ragini. What do you want to do next?" he asked curiously.

'Well can you get me a hot handsome lover who can pamper me and give me princess treatment?' my heart whispered sarcastically and I pressed my lips in thin line at my thoughts.

I then sighed as I said, "I don't know Sanskar. A part of me wants to just live away from everyone. I was so happy before uniting Maa and Baba. I was so carefree. I wish to be like that before and another part of me also wonders why should I run away? I did not make any mistake!"

"I will give you the same solution you gave me", he said and I looked at him confused.

"You can always come back and prove the truth. I am ready to help you any day in that. Give some time to yourself and see if you are happy being away from everything", he said and I smiled hearing him.

"You do have brain!" I said impressed and he rolled his eyes making me giggle.

"You can stay here till you find a place. There is no rush", he said, I tried to interrupt him but he immediately said, "Come on Swara, be practical! Where will you go? You can't go to Baadi, right now your Maa needs to focus on your Dida and not you!" I sighed helplessly hearing his words.