Her GxG

Confessions

As I approached, I could see the tension etched across her face. She looked up and smiled weakly, her eyes flickering with uncertainty. I took a seat across from her, the weight of the moment hanging heavily between us.

"Hey," I said softly, trying to break the ice.

"Hey," she replied, her voice barely above a whisper. The moment felt fragile, like the first crack of ice in a thaw.

We both sat in silence for a moment, the surrounding sounds of the library—whispers, pages turning, the faint rustling of paper—fading into the background. My heart raced as I struggled to find the right words to say.

Finally, I blurted out, "I've been thinking about everything." The truth of it hung in the air, and I could see her stiffen slightly.

Alex nodded, biting her lip. "Me too. I've replayed that night in my head a hundred times." Her voice trembled, revealing a vulnerability I hadn't expected. "I really am sorry for the harsh words. I feel really bad." 

"It's okay, but I have a confession." I swallowed the lump in my throat "I like you" The words slipped out before I could stop myself, hanging in the air like a fragile promise. I watched Alex's expression shift, her eyes widening in surprise as she processed what I had just said.

"You... like me?" she echoed her voice a mix of disbelief.

"Yeah," I admitted, my cheeks flushing with embarrassment. "That's why I was actually upset that night" 

For a moment, the world around us faded into a blur. The library noises, the students shuffling past, everything dimmed as I focused on her reaction. Her eyes shifted to the fireplace and she said nothing. 

"oh-" she finally said. 

"oh?" I said. 

"Yeah, 'oh,'" she replied, her gaze still fixed on the fireplace, her expression a mix of surprise and contemplation. "I just... didn't expect that."

I felt my heart race, a knot tightening in my stomach. Did I just ruin everything? I glanced around, suddenly aware of the library's quiet atmosphere and the curious glances from other students.

"I know it's a lot to take in," I said quickly, trying to mask my anxiety. "But it's true. I've liked you for a while, and I thought it was time to say it."

"I gotta go," she said standing up

"What?" I stood up after her "That's all you have to say?"

Alex paused, her expression shifting from surprise to a mix of panic and confusion. "I didn't mean to... I just need a moment to think."

"Think about what?" I asked, frustration creeping into my voice. "About how I feel? About how we've been dancing around this for weeks?"

"I'm not trying to dismiss your feelings," she said, her voice trembling slightly. "I just... it's a lot, and I'm not sure how to process it right now."

"Right now?" I echoed, disbelief washing over me. "So, you're just going to walk away? After I just bared my feelings?"

She glanced around, her cheeks flushed. "I didn't mean to upset you. I just need a second to figure things out. It's overwhelming, you know?"

This isn't how I expected this to go. At all. I feel my heart beating against my chest.  Feeling the weight of the moment settle heavily on my shoulders.

"Overwhelming? I get that, but this isn't just some casual chat for me. I've been holding onto these feelings for so long." My voice came out sharper than I intended, but I couldn't help it. The vulnerability I had just shared felt so raw, and now it seemed to hang in the air between us like a fragile thread.