The lovely Satoru Gojo

Frustation

He sighed as he walked back to his car. Times like these is when he hated being a sorcerer. He was naive to think his job wouldn't get in his way of pursuing Brianna. He could tell she was a kind spirit, she deserved better than him. After all, he was just a depressed sorcerer who was afraid to express his feelings and who was always busy with work. Because of that, Satoru never did seek out a relationship. There was no point in trying to get close to someone. He would be to much to deal with and came with a lot of baggage. However, he was still human and he desperately craved human contact. That's when he would go to bars to pick up women. He had only ever experienced lust and not true intimacy. He wondered how it would feel to experience that. To feel connected to the person you're sleeping with. He had hoped Brianna would be that person.

Even though he barely knew her, he couldn't deny the excitement he felt when being with her. Was it because she had no idea who he was? Is that what made it exciting? He sighed once more, trying to figure out his feelings. He wasn't use to this, he never had to think about the women. It was different, he was only looking to score with them. That was like second nature to him. He didn't even really have to try, most women just threw themselves at him. Maybe that's what was so exciting about her, Brianna was more reserved. Perhaps he just enjoyed the chase? Whatever the case maybe, he didn't want to hurt her.

He had hoped to take her on a few dates to see what he wanted and liked about her so much. Being interpreted like that though from his job, made him rethink his decision. She looked so disappointed when he had to leave. Worse, she doesn't even know why he had to leave. She doesn't know he's saving people on a regular basis. He probably just came off like a jackass. He gripped the steering wheel hard at that thought. He didn't want to come off like a prick to her. He scrunched his face up, clearly mad about everything. This is wasn't fair! He would never be able to have a relationship with anyone! He was to busy as a sorcerer, being cursed as the strongest! He then made a fist with one hand, squeezing it hard and then proceeded to hit his steering wheel multiple times. He just wanted to experience love, to be able to cherish a woman correctly. Why did he have to be burden with such a life?! He was so lonely and pained. Having to see horrific things everyday and losing comrades. He let out a deep grunt and then stopped hitting his steering wheel. He pulled over on the side of the road. He looked at his now bleeding hand from squeezing so hard. His nails piercing his skin. He let out a long sigh and felt tears roll down his face.

He leaned back in his seat, and put his head back while his arms slumped to his sides. All he felt was agony in his heart. He wanted to pursue her, but he knew he shouldn't. It would have been selfish of him to continue. With his lifestyle, he was only meant for hookups or fwb. He couldn't treat her that way. Even though a part of him did want to be selfish. He thought if he couldn't have her romantically, he could at least have her sexually. At least then, he could still be close to her in a way. "No, I can't do that. I respect her to much to only lust after her."

As he wallowed in his self pity, for a brief second, Suguru popped into his head. "Ugh...why are you popping into my head all of a sudden. I don't need anymore pain in my heart right now....oh Suguru...what would you think of the man I've become? Taking pity on myself like this...you would probably think I was pathetic. No, that wasn't you..."  Every time Satoru was sad, Suguru would often cross his mind. He was the only one who came close to  understanding him. Meaning, Satoru would often go to him when he had problems. He missed having his old friend help and comfort him through his struggles. More tears ran down his face, they were uncontrollable. He then covered his face with his hands. He felt so vulnerable and fragile in this moment. His heart aching for love, missing his friend, and the guilt he felt for killing said friend, it was all to overwhelming. After a few moments, his tears finally stopped and he drove to his mission.

***

He laid in his bed checking his phone. No messages from Brianna. Even though he decided he wouldn't pursue her anymore, he had hoped she would reach out. He couldn't blame her for not texting him though, a week had already passed and he never did text her after leaving early on their 2nd date. This was for the best though. You shouldn't pursue someone if you know you can't give them time, right?

Still, he couldn't get her out of his head. He enjoyed her company a lot. She was able to match his wit and actually seemed to enjoy his shenanigans. She was also very beautiful, with a perfect body. He loved how big her thighs were and her stomach...oh her stomach. It was so plumpy, he wanted so badly to run his fingers over it, to feel his hand melt into her warm squishy flesh. It would have made a perfect pillow for him. Then his thoughts got a little more...perverted. He had remembered how red her face got when he kissed her. He wondered if her face would flush amidst an orgasm. He imagined all the faces he could have her make with his touch. He would start off gentle, then slowly get more rough. Oh how she would look amazing covered up in his markings. Let's not forget those lips, her beautiful soft lips. He wanted them all over his body, he then thought about how gorgeous she would look with his dick in her mouth. He couldn't bare that thought, it was to tantalizing. He could feel his dick harden at that thought. He groaned softly. He desperately wanted to stroke himself, his body was begging for it. He wanted more though, he didn't just want his hand, he wanted Brianna! No...he needed her! His body was begging for her touch. He needed to feel those pretty lips on his throbbing cock.

He laid there, debating if he should drive to her house right now or just take care of his problem himself. The more he thought about it, the more he felt desperate. His body was longing for her touch. "No! Calm yourself Satoru. Come on! You have more self control than this. Don't bother her right now, it's to late. She's probably not even up, she's probably sleeping..." his mind then made him picture her sleeping in a long T-shirt and underwear. Which didn't help with his problem. He couldn't take it anymore, he had to do something! He quickly started to unbuckle his pants, taking them off. He gently stroked his dick against his boxers, letting a small moan escape his mouth. He pulled down his underwear making his dick spring out. It was huge, 8 inches to be exact. He grabbed some lube and put it on his hand. He lathered his dick up, focusing on his tip first. He closed his eyes, enjoying the sensation of touching his hard cock to the thought of Brianna. He massaged his balls with his other hand. "Brianna" he said softly and breathless. It was all so intense. He started to do long slow strokes, teasing himself and whimpering. He started picking up the speed, his hips buckling upward involuntarily. The pleasure was so strong. He started to stroke faster, his hand that was massaging his balls, now clutching his sheets hard. He thought about how amazing her huge tits would feel in his face. They were probably saggy from how big they were, which only seemed to excite him more. He loved saggy breast, he loved how they just dangled in his face. All he had to do was lean up a bit to suck on them. He had bet she probably had beautiful tits. The thought of her breast in his face, took him over the edge. He started to cum on his abs while moaning. After he finished, he laid there feeling ashamed. He felt he didn't have the right to touch himself to her. He couldn't ignore that was his best orgasm though. He then wondered how she would feel if she knew he just busted a nut to the thought of her.

(A/n) you know I heard from somewhere (I think tiktok) that most vaginas are 5 inches deep. The more you know! Also In my head I feel like Gojo would def be packing, but I didn't want to make him huge huge to the point it would hurt. So I figured 8 inches is probably good, right? 😬 idk...never had 8 inches before.
Do you think he would be big? Or would it be small since everything else about him is perfect 🤔