Saving Libby

Untitled Part 4

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It's after midnight when I hear the foot steps outside my door. I hold my breath hoping they move on down the hallway. My hopes die when I hear the nob turn. You would think I'd be used to this by now but it never gets easier. I do what I do every time he comes in my bedroom I close my eyes and pretend to be sleeping. I know it won't change what's going to happen it never does.

The bed squeaks and I stiffen knowing he's about to touch me. I hold my breath wishing he would die I hate him with everything in me. It doesn't take long before his chest is pressed against my back and his fingers are sliding up my arm.

"Libby baby are you awake?" He whispers in his deep voice.

I say nothing I lay as still as I can, holding my breath wishing I would pass out. His hand touches my breast. His finger rubs over my nipple making me want to gage. But as discussed as I am my nipple still puckers at his touch. I can't understand why my body reacts to him I hate him. I hate him touching me I hate everything about him. Yet he can still make my body react to his. It makes me feel so guilty that he can do this to me. I don't want this I've never wanted this.

"That's it baby...It feels good doesn't it?" He whispers in my ear as he kisses down my neck.

He slides his body on top of mine spreading my legs as he makes himself comfortable. My eyes are still closed I never look at him when he is doing this. He's a monster. I feel pressure as he pushes his way inside me. I start counting seeing how far I can get before he gets done. It never takes him long to finish that's my only saving grace. Once he's done he usually goes to his room and leaves me alone.

"God baby you feel so fucking good put your arms around me I want you to touch me Libby. I couldn't wait till I got home tonight away from everyone else so I could be alone with you."

He kisses down my throat his body still moving over mine as he speaks. My arms automatically life and I wrap them around his back. I'm at three hundred now.

"Run your hands up and down my back Libby. Yea like that. Your touch sets me on fire. God you are so beautiful... oh god baby this is it." He grunts.

I'm at four hundred when he grunts. His heavy weight falls onto my slim body cutting off all my oxygen. After a few minutes he flips over on his back then turns to his side. I feel his eyes on me but I refuse to look at him.

"You know I love you right?"

I nod my head praying he will shut up and leave. My hatred for him grows daily. How can he possible say he loves me? Can he really believe this is okay?

"You're mine Libby and you always will be. I'll never let you go. I'd kill anyone that tried to take you away from me. I'd kill you before I'll ever let you leave me. You know that right?"

I nod my head again as I listen to him tell me the same words he tells me every time. I've listened to these words for years. I wish he would kill me at least then I would be away from him.

"I better get to my room so I can get some sleep."

His lips press hard into mine but I don't kiss him back. Once he leaves my bedroom I jump up and take off for my bathroom. I make it to the toilet just in time. Once I'm done I flush and set back against the wall tears rolling down my face. I can't believe this is my life. When I was young I thought I would rule the world. I used to tell my mom I was going to be the first woman president. She would always tell me I could be anything I wanted to be.

I know now I was just a stupid kid back then. I'm not even eighteen yet and I'm totally broken. He has destroyed me from the inside out. I'm not the same girl I was back before he came into my life. Now all I know is fear and discuss. I hate looking in the mirror I sicken myself. I'm am weak and stupid. It's my fault he does this to me. In the beginning I fought him but it didn't help all that ever did was make it worse on me. He would hurt me then still do what he wanted anyway. So after a while I gave up the fighting and let him do it knowing the sooner he did the faster he would leave me alone.

Undressing I turn the water on in the shower getting it as hot as I can stand before getting in and trying to wash him and his smell off my body.

I know this is a short chapter but it had to be this way. I hope you guys didn't find it to hard to read. Please comment. I love getting feedback. Thanks everyone!!