The dark night of the soul

Depp in the tree

As we were stepping into the tree, it started to get darker for a second, but pretty quickly I saw so much light that I couldn't keep our eyes open until we reached our destination. When I finally started to see again, a human shape appeared in front of me. As we got closer, I started to see the healer more clearly: blond wavy hair, brown eyes, and her face gave me the energy of being very wise and incredibly powerful. Finally, I arrived to her. I was standing right in front of her. We looked at each other, and she started to smile.
" Princess Kate! Or should I say, Colette?"
I looked at Blaze surprised, when I heard that she knew my real name. Blaze looked back at me with an I told you so glaze.
"Welcome!" She continued. "Tell me your question! I'm connected to higher-rank angels, I can feel the spirit world, and I will be able to help you understand what is happening."
" Since you know my name, I guess you know where I came from. Do you know what happened to me? How did I get here? How come I know everyone from here because they are in my other life, too?"
"What is your guess?" She asked with a smile.
" I thought this is some kind of parallel universe."
" Not quite! But close! We are all light! Energies! God created us to come here, to the earth, to experience, learn lessons, and fulfill our life purpose. And we have the free will to continue coming down until we learn everything."
" Oh my God! Keep coming down? You mean past life?"
" Colette, you who didn't have love in your life are desperate to find someone who can give you safety, care, and support. When your soul recognized Elanor's soul, it started to remember her as your mother from your past."
" So I know her from a past life? She was my mama? I knew we had a connection! But how is this all possible? That I'm here?"
" You got into a coma, right? Isn't it interesting that you woke up from one here right when you got into a coma there?"
" Meaning?" I asked a little bit impatiently.
" Your desires and your soul's memory brought your past life back. You are remembering of your past life through dreaming. This is just a fantasy in your head based on real past life events."
" This is not real?" I asked as I felt I will start to cry.
"This life? No! But follow the happenings! Because they tell you a story from your past!"
" Please! I don't want this to be a dream! I don't want to wake up! I don't want to go back there without my mama!" I asked her while I was crying.
"Do you know who you sacrificing yourself for? This woman... Eleanor, or here known as Marie.. do you think you truly know her?"
" She is an angel! My light!"
" You are not the one who needs her; it's the opposite, actually! You have a big light, my dear! You are special! But she; she is nothing else, just a lost soul who needs rescuing."
" What? Eleanor?"
" Yes! She doesn't believe in anything; she is just a selfish, sad woman who doesn't even know who she is for real. She may look like a strong, loving person, but in reality, she doesn't know who she is. All she cares about is herself. This is no different in this world either! Just look at here! She is playing a role! But all she cares about is herself! Do you know who put you in a coma here?"
" Blaze has a guess." I said as I looked at him. "The man who I saw my mom with?"
" That man is your mother's lover! He wanted to take your mother with him. So he stole the flower because he hoped it would kill you. But it didn't work. You had a coma, and your mother stayed because she never wanted to leave in the first place. She wants power and fame. He was just a joke for her. Just a lover. But she does hide him because he is useful to her."
"That's why she was relieved when I didn't remember anything." I answered as I was in a shock. I looked at the healer. "Maybe I can save her. Maybe I can give her enough love to change her soul."
" Why would you want to help her? You came to this world to do big things with your art. Why waste your time?"
" Because I believe in good, in change, in love. Please! I don't want to go home!"
" You have free will! You can stay here! But you would waste a huge potential to learn lessons and do what God signed you up for!"
" You said this illusion follows my past life's happening?"
" Exactly!"
" Then I will stay just enough to figure out how to help Eleanor! I won't let her down! She is my everything!"
" As you wish! Don't forget to remember everything! The road that you are choosing right now is dangerous! We don't remember our past for a reason!" She said, then she stretched her arms towards me. "Hold my hand! I have something for you!" She said. I hesitated for a second, then gave her my hand.
"I will give you protection! It looks like you have a bad spirit on you! I hope you don't mind if I take down this demon from you!"
" A what? How is that possible?"
" They go after souls who have big light!" She said as she was concentrating on my energy, and I felt all my bad energy disappear. I felt lighter and easier. She must have been right. "Now, my dear! Go and do what you have to do! But I warn you! You have to choose yourself and God at the end! You can not change someone if they want it. No one can be saved of themselves!" She said as she pointed to the door, and it opened for us to leave the tree.
"Thank you!" I said as I walked out of the tree with my heart broken to a million places. When we arrived outside, I stopped and looked at the beautiful trees. Nature gave me so much peace at a moment like this.
" Are you okay?" Asked the familiar voice. I looked next to me and smiled at the red fluffy fox.
" Thank you, Blaze! You helped me see the truth! This is just my imagination covered with some demon attack. I'm a loser! I will never have love in my life!"
" This is not true, okay? You are a good person with a pure heart! One day you will be loved! And you will do great things! You heard the healer! You should go home and concentrate on yourself!"
" No, Blaze! I will save my mother's soul. I will stay and figure out what happened with us, then I will go home, and I will fight for her! I won't give up on her! Even if she accidentally hurt me!"
" In that case, Let's go home, my princess!" He said as he bowed to me. I smiled. This was the first time when he handled me with as much grace as he would need to act towards a princess. I was ready to return to the palace and save my mother's soul, but I suddenly heard galloping again. I looked in the way of the voice when I saw the knights again. And this time there was no handsome stranger to save us. I knew I was in big trouble.