Diamonds Aren't Perfect

That One Phone Call 📞

While sitting in the living, I decided to call up one of my best friends.

"Wssp? Girly!" She answered after what seemed to be like the 3rd ring.

"I can't do this no more girl, the more I stick around the less love I have for myself. How can a man feel good about tearing the mother of his child down?" I cried to Monti sister Nikki.

Due to my anxiety, I continued talking without letting her get a response out.

" I can't believe I stayed around this long; I feel like a damn fool." I said this time with frustration.

Nikki knew exactly what was going on, because for the past few months I confided in her.

"I hate you going through this, that shit pisses me off. Dude just needs to gone about his life if he doesn't plan on doing right by you and my niece." Nikki angrily stated.

See when I first meet my child's dad his tactic was to isolate me from all my friends and family, so I went years without talking to her but when I found out I was pregnant that is where I drew the line. Not only because I was pregnant but also at the same time I found out he had just had a baby with another girl.

Yeah, crazy right! 

I miss the days when love was genuine and men just wanted to charm their women. That's how I found Monti, my first love. This was supposed to be our baby, is all I could think in my head.

"What if he never talks to me again." I asked Nikki in a trembling tone, as if I was trying to hold back my tears.

"Girl, yes he will don't cry, and don't worry I'm gone talk to him. I know he still loves you, however, girl I know he was hurt when he found out you were pregnant," she said as a head's ups.

" But don't worry I'm going to do some searching around and give him your number. Will you be able to talk?" She asked worryingly.

"Of course, he ain't my man, clearly he for everybody." I responded referring to who I considered to be my child sperm donor.

I proceeded further let her know I wanted to hear from my first love, because I knew if no man ever loved me I knew Monti loved me.

"Girl gone hang up and tell him to call me,ASAP, hopefully I can make things right," I said anxiously rushing her off the phone.

As we hung up, I sat on the couch reminiscing about the promises me and Monti made to one another. And how I broke one by having a baby by another man who I didn't love and couldn't see my self being with for the rest of my life. I was so heartbroken with my love life, that I never seen myself ever being happy again. While also, thinking to myself who gone want someone with a child? Proceeding to drop my head in my lap.

Moments later, I noticed a dark shadow over me and looked to see what it was. Long behold, there Alonzo was standing over me with his eyebrows raised, nose, and mouth scrunched up all tight. As if he just walked into somewhere that smelled highly unpleasant.

"Who you in here on the phone with?" Asked my child's donor aggressively, in disregard to him disrupting my me-to-self moment.

I instantly exploded "You know what? I'm done letting you bring me down, so from now on if it is not about your child do not worry about anything I have going on." I said while staring at his body language real carefully.

Over the past few years of dating Alonzo, I've learned from his family & experience that he is known to be controlling and abusive with Women he date. He walked closer to me, put his gun to my head, looked me in my eyes and said.

"You right, nobody gone won't your bony ass, bitch you have a whole kid. You stupid as fuck! I should shoot your ass but you're not even worth it." He smirked as he took the gun away from my head and began to laugh, as he turned around and went back into the room with our daughter.

From that moment I knew I had to start a new life for me and my newborn baby girl, and that things had to change. I no longer cared about no one else feelings at that moment, but mine and my child. In my head, I knew if all else failed, it would me and baby girl against the world.