Bumps in the Road: A Living with One Direction Sequel

Useless

Gracie's POV

I'm almost three months pregnant and I don't know how I feel. I have gotten to a stage where I want my baby, I already love him. At the same time, I feel like I'm going to be a complete failure. I can't even pass my own maths class, I can barely cook food, I struggle to keep my room clean. I'm only 15! How am I ever going to do this? As I lay on my bed, tears filled my eyes. My mind was filled with doubt. Tears started pouring down my face, I shoved a pillow in my mouth to muffle to noises escaping my mouth. I didn't want the boys to worry about me.

"Gigi, can I borrow your charger?" Louis called from downstairs.

I tried to collect myself to respond but I couldn't. I didn't respond and heard footsteps coming up the stairs. A knock was on my door.

"Can I come in? I need a charger!" Louis called.

I once again didn't respond.

"Are you ok?" He asked through the door, confused by my not answering. 

My tears were becoming more rapid, a wet patch on my pillowcase.

"I'm coming in." Louis said.

Shit. I didn't want him to see me like this, I didn't want him to worry. It was no use; I couldn't stop my tears. I heard my door open and suddenly felt Louis sitting down on the bed next to me. He was tracing circles on my back with his finger.

"What's wrong kiddo?" Louis whispered.

"I'm going to fail." I choked out between sobs.

"Fail what?" 

"Parenting."

"You'll be a great mum, I promise."

"No, I won't! I have to do it all on my own because my boyfriend was a dick. I'm too dumb to figure out my own schoolwork, let alone help my kid. I can't cook for shit; my baby is going to starve. I can't keep my room clean to save my life, where am I going to put baby stuff? I have you guys, but I can't just rely on you forever. I'm going to keep you guys up all night with a crying child, all because of my stupid mistake! I'm totally fucking useless!" 

"Don't let Liam hear you say that." Louis chuckled, trying to lighten the mood. "Your boyfriend is a dick, that's why it's good he's gone, it will be easier without him. You're not dumb, besides the kid's maths won't get hard for at least 13 years. You can cook some stuff, plus you can learn. None of us can cook and you didn't starve. Your room is clean right now, the baby is going to make mess anyway so you will be fine. Yes, you made a stupid mistake, but a crying baby doesn't bother us. Zayn will sleep through anything, Harry and Liam have the biggest hearts, they won't mind waking up for a baby, Niall and I love kids, we would do anything to spend even just a minute with the kid, even if that means middle of the night. You are far from useless, you went through so much from such a young age and her you are as a fully capable 15-year-old, that's far from useless!"

Suddenly, I was in Louis arms, he was lying next to me. It reminded me of my first night with the boys. I woke up from a nightmare, Louis came in and lyed with me.  I thought deeply about Louis words, I started to feel less useless.

"Yes, you can borrow my charger." I giggled.

"Thanks Kiddo."