A Quiet Place

9.

Kha'Mazi
2 months later

I've been distancing myself from everybody, this happens sometimes. It's just one of my moods. At first, Blake tried to help me through it but she realized I didn't want help. I didn't want to be saved..

This started about two weeks after my birthday. I even completely stopped talking to Blake before I fully got into this mood. All I've been doing is wake up, school, practice, shower, smoke, and sleep... everyday. I've barely been eating.

I'm pretty sure Carson has caught onto it but I made up a lie about me being tired with sports. I told Grace the same lie.

I hear a knock on my door, I knock on my head board- telling them to come in.

Carson came into my room and looked around, "You wanna come wimme to this kick back?"

I sign, "Is there going to be gas?"

He nods, "Weed and drinks."

I nod.

"Aii, Be ready by 9:30." He said before leaving my room.

This is the first time that I broke the cycle I was in for the past 2 months. I look at my phone to see that it was 8. So, I got up and put on my 'Rich Forever' sweatsuit and my Balenciaga runners. When I checked the time again, it was 8:30.

I could pregame..

With that thought I grab my stash of weed and rolls to start rolling up. By the time I was finished with 2 rolls it was 9.

I get up to find my lighter then start smoking. I was too focused on smoking that I ain't see the time.

Carson bust in my room, "Nigga it's 8:48, bring yo ass."

I wasn't super high even though I was almost done with the blunt. I put it out and make sure I get everything, when I see that I do- I make my way to his car.

When I got in, he was already in there. Once I got situated, he immediately pulled out the driveway.

When we got to a red light I signed, "Why you in a rush to a party?"

He looks at me, "Juh vibe."

I roll my eyes and look at the scenery outside the window. We make it to the party to see it already jumping.

I nod my head to the music.

"Igh, try not to get cross faded. Ian drinkin since I drove. If somebody shoot this hoe up, the meet up spot is my car."

I put a thumbs up and make my way to the house.

When I make it inside the house, I'm met with the smell of weed and sweat. I nod my head to the music and weave my way through the crowd.

When I reached the kitchen I instantly started pouring up.

Not too much tho

I light my blunt before grabbing my cup. I find a wall to post up on, I ended up settling outside the kitchen.

About 15 minutes later I hear a familiar voice, "I told you ass Ian wanna come bro. Leave me the fuck alone." Before I figure brushes past me, shoulder checking me.

The voice turned around.

..Blake

"My bad gang." She said, with an irritated emotion written across her face.

I instantly become worried.

"Im coo." She said, I'm guessing she seen my facial expression. She turns to walk away but I grab her arm. She looks at me and raises her eyebrows.

I mouth, "You sure?"

She hums and gets her arm from my grip before walking away. I sigh and try to follow her.

After 5 minutes of searching, I find her posted up outside the house-smoking. I go up to her and whisper, "You igh?"

She looks at me tiredly, "Mhm, why you followed?"

I whisper, "You looked.. irritated. I was worried."

She looks at me like I'm stupid and chuckles, "Right."

We sit in silence, the only thing heard is the music from inside and her exhaling smoke. I sigh and grab the blunt out her hand.

I whisper, "Who was you goin off on in the kitchen?"

She looks at me, "Why you whispering?"

I smack my lips and whisper, "I haven't talked in the longest, and I still don't feel like talkin. But I also don't feel like typing."

She shrugs and nod, "Im heading out." She said, leaning off the wall.

I clear my throat, "Mama I'm sorry."

She sighs and lean back on the wall, "What exactly are you apologizin for Kha'Mazi?"

That hurt..

"Ghosting.."

She hums, "Im gone, Ima talk- actually never mind. If you really gon give me an explanation, call me." She said walking away.

I sigh and look back at the party. I shake my head and start walking with no destination.

I should've let Blake save me. I want to get saved from this mood but something isn't letting me admit that. Blake was the only person who could actually-

A car horn takes me out my thoughts. When I look up I see Blake's car.

"Get in Kha'Mazi." She said sternly.

I sigh and get in her car.

"Where to?" She asked putting her phone on her lap.

I point at her- saying her house- or literally wherever she's going. She just look back at the road and start driving.

When we pulled up to her house, she immediately got out. I follow her to her room, she let me in before closing the room door.

She points at her desk and go in her closet.