broken ~ a Christian Collins love story

Diary 6

I woke up to the sound of Lilly's phone ringing ugh so I woke up anyways and see lily sitting there with a bathing suit on with a lot of others on the floor I asked her what was she doing all she said was she was getting ready for the pool and that I should to

so I got up did my usual routine in the bathroom and looked through my stuff to find a bathing suit that I liked I decided to pick out this one that had pink blue and white in a cool pattern I guess

and to be honest it was a surprise for anyone to see me in a bikini cause I remember that time in my life where I was depressed and I used to self harm and not be happy with my body cause people always used to call me fat and I would never wear anything the would show my body not even shorts I guess that's the main reason I switched to homeschooling

anyways I looked for a coverup to wear ontop of my bikini and I found this really cute romper type of thing that was white and honestly I didn't even know I had. Next for my hair I just put it into a causal bun not to messy

lily told me to hurry up cause she was ready so I grabbed my phone and sunglasses and put on some flip flops and head out the door I was so excited and plus me and lily were kinda matching so we looked cute anyways

we went into the elevator and got to the floor that the pool was on . It looked amazing so we sat at a table with two chairs we took off our cover ups and I decided I was gonna tan a little first so I was laying on the chair with my phone on Twitter and other social media sites . After a while I asked lily if she wanted to come in the pool with me and we went in it was so relaxing and surprisingly we were the only ones we ended up having a water fight so we were splashing each other and laughing.

30 minutes later
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It was very fun at the pool but I was tired and I wanted to shower so I told lily I was gonna leave but she said she would see me later cause this cute guy that looked familiar just came and I guess she was gonna talk to him so I put my coverup back on and grabbed my things and headed insaid the elevator I pressed the button for the 3rd floor

I was on my phone as the doors were about to close but someone quickly came in it was a boy and he didn't press any button cause he was on the same floor as me I thought I would introduce myself to this boy so I look up from my phone to find him starring at me then I realize its Christian i say hi I'm Jessica but my voice cracked in the end

Chris already knew who I was but he still said hey I'm Christian but you can call me Chris it was then silent till the elevator stopped on the 3rd floor we both got out I was walking away when I heard him say Jessica wait I turned around and sighed then said what

"Can we talk"

"There's nothing to talk about Chris"

"Please I can explain"

"Fine lets go in my room and talk"

UGH why did I say my room I even regretting talking to him. I opened my room door and sat on my bed Chris sat next to me I noticed he was eyeing me up and down in the elevator he started talking and said

I'm so sorry I didn't text you back the day after we FaceTimed i was with my girlfriend Carrington and she saw your text and thought I was cheating on her so she made me delete your number and block it I am soooo sorry

It's ok I accept your apology and I got up and hugged him and he gave the best hug I ever had but when he mentioned his girlfriend my heart broke from inside he had a girlfriend and never told his fans then he got up and said that he should go and we should hang out soon but me being me i said

"We can hangout right now if you want "

"Yeah sure "

"Ok but can you let me shower quickly I just came from the pool "

"Yeah that's fine I'll just wait on the bed "

I quickly got in the shower and took the quickest shower of my life and got out then I remembered my clothes are OUTSIDE I mentally punched myself in the face I opened the bathroom door and Chris looked at me in my towel I got so embarrassed
"my clothes are here "
and took my whole suitcase with me into the bathroom I quickly changed into some shorts with a black crop top that has a white design and a black and white flannel i left my hair out to air dry and didn't bother to put makeup on

after when I got out Chris smiled at me so I smiled back and I sat on the bed with him we exchanged numbers again
" okay so what movie do you want to watch " 
" umm how about INSIDIOUS 3 Yeah that one" " ugh please no I hate scary movies "
" don't worry I'll protect you "
he smiles and pokes my sides while saying that
"Fine but just because I'm being nice "
" yay okie dokie love "
OMG did he call me love awee that made my day he's so sweet I was interrupted out of my thoughts by Chris
" hellooo earth to Jessica "
he said while smiling
" oh sorry what were you saying "
He smirks and says " can I close the lights "
"u-uh yeah sure" I was starting to worry because if you didn't know I'm the biggest scaredy cat in the world but it's ok Jessica calm down you can do this suddenly the lights went off and he played the movie the beginning was ok but the middle got scary I was staring horrified at the screen until a pop up came I screamed so loud and hid under the blanket 

I felt hands wrap around me and the blanket came off all the lights were back on and the movie was paused
" oh my god I'm so sorry I didn't know you were that scared "
" it's ok I'm ok now "
" your shaking love " he started rubbing my back to comfort me and it was working I sighed in relief
" I'm Sooooo sorry " and he hugged me I obviously hugged back
When we pulled away from the hug I couldn't help but stare in his mysterious eyes I wonder what was going on in his mind and before I could do anything he started leaning in should I lean in to fuck it I started leaning in to he stopped and I could feel his breath on my skin it was giving me chills he closed the gap between us and started kissing me and I kissed back our lips moved perfectly together he then smiles into the kiss it was about to get more heated and put me on his lap but I quickly pulled away shocked that I just did that

" love what's wrong " he put his hand on mine to comfort me but I pulled my hand back
" Chris y-you have a girlfriend "
I didn't look at him after it was really silent I wondered is he regretting kissing me what is he thinking
" i-I think I should get back Crawf is probably waiting for me "
He gets up and I do to
" yeah "
He then leaves I close the door just sitting there shocked what just happened I kept on thinking if I didn't pull away what would have happened and what about his girlfriend ?
fuck me and lily need to find a apartment soon
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A/N:  THEY FINALLY KISSED comment what their ship name would be please vote and comment yoo so guys I'm officially back for sure I just kinda updated this chapter next one is coming soon
I love you guys see you soon ~ imaan 💕