Author pov
Days were very long and hard to spend for gungun at home, her day usually were the same but the longing for her husband made her stand at door looking outside for his arrival, she stared going to the terrace in order to look for his car but to her disappointment every day she returned with a dejected feeling in her heart the feeling of rejection slowly sinking in her as he did not pick up her calls, replied to her texts. She texted him the same text daily which was not answered by him.
I love you nihal, I miss you come back please
Every night she woke up till three, almost trying to be awake with a hope he will come back to her as a surprise, but every night that hope shattered as there was no reply or text or call from him she cried till she finally close her heavy eyes to sleep.
The hope in her did not faded still, still she had hope to give it ger marriage of ten years, a decade she spent with the man she loves dearly they might not be perfect for each other, might become toxic for each other,, might get at each other's reason for sadness but they were the roots for happiness as well for each other.
She did not stop to message him daily as the days passed by her hope turned into worry for his health and well being, he use to reply or talk to his parents once a week but it slowly became lesser and lesser and he ultimately stopped talking to them as he did to her as if totally abandoned them.
She felt too much anxiety and Depressive thoughts consumed her all the time, despite looking after her sons and family she tried to find a reason to live, but her feelings that were eating her inside became a major cause for her eating disorders.
She ate and more like gobbles food whenever she is free,, angry, sad, happy, frustrated,, her urges to eat till she is out of breath struggling to walk and her jaw and cheeks hurting from chewing, till she felt like she can't anymore and will throw up all that she ate, she continues to eat, slowly with the days passing her weight and urge to eat grew like a demon starving from ages.
She waited and worked till she is exhausted at times, rest of the time she ate and ate anything abd everything, her in laws themselves were too worried for their son and looking at her they felt heart broken, her constant weight gain day by day, her struggling to walk, breath, being out of breath most of the time made it to painful for the olds soul to look at, they cursed their useless son for being such a failure and coward.
Days turned to weeks, weeks turned to month and soon it crashed the hope of gunu when one month passed, another passed and third month was coming to end her eyes turned teary looking at the calender, doors, a feeling of abandonment settled in her heart.
But when she entered the phase of letting the abandonment enter in her heart and mind, one fine night the door bell of her home rang up. So her phone, the man who made her left out, and abandoned finally called her, feeling relief, anger, and tension she picked it up.
She placed the phone on her ear and after three months, long three months, ahe finally heard his voice making hr break in tears "hello gunu " His gruff voice with the same care and love went in her ears making her put her hand in mouth as she sobbed miserably.
His heart felt ache in pain as he heard her vulnerability through the cell phone, taking a deep sigh he told her in a very polite tone " Aake gate kholo, I am back baby "
Gungun imagined this moment millions of time in her head, everytime she made sure to slap him and beat him in her imagination as he made her go through such abandonment in these days but now the reality sinking in her, made her hands shake in anxiety, her legs wobbled as she move towards the door her heart is beating so fast in her chest still a strange nauseous feeling didn't left her.
Nihal stood outside the gate waiting for her to come and open the door, he knows what she might have gone through in these days his absence might have affected her the most of all the people in the house, he stood there ready to face the situation completely like a man now, he prepared himself not run away anymore to face it like a man he did not know how she might react but this is needed to be done, he rubbed his shaky cold hands while the cold breeze made him freeze and shudder.
Warm air hit his face suddenly looking up he looked at her standing in front of him after so long, both stood there in front of each other, looking at each other both thought of the time that passed the three months appeared to be thirty years, both looked tired and aged all of sudden.
She looks at her husband with the tears in her eyes, she spoke nothing but her eyes said it all the complaint, the longing, the insecurity, the vulnerability were all showcasing in the previous pearls that flowed out of her eyes.
He looked at her with the same tears in her eyes, the sense of longing and sadness in his eyes, moving inside he steeped towards her, who hugged him tightly and finally broke down, letting it all out.
"Kyu kyu kyu kyu chod diya mujhe kyu....... Why don't you love me like I do to you " She sobbed in her lovers arms, the tears kept on falling from her eyes she had to say so much to him but her tongue felt tied at that moment the only sound she could was make was of heart wrenching sobs that longed for his love and care.
He held her tight in his arms, hugging her so close to not let her evr go away again, he put his head in the crook of her neck to feel her close to him the sole thing he wanted this past three month that he craved her presence neat him in the most difficult time of his life.
"Bahu kya hua tum chila kyu rahi ho " Said his mother coming out of ger room along with his father, they both looked at there son the feeling of resentment quickly went away as they looked at him fine and healthy, gungun aware of the presence of her in laws she backed away from him.
His mother who was stepping towards him stopped suddenly when his father asked ignored figure besides him "aarushi tum iske sath itni raat ko aayi ho yaha? "
Gungun shocked and traumatized looked at the woman standing besides her own husband, the beautiful woman looks back at her feeling her gaze, looking at the perfect model like woman who looked so perfect, gungun her entire existence being mocked, she felt broken and vulnerable too much vulnerable, she looked back in the eyes of the man she loves so much.
Feeling betrayed, she shaked her head mumbling " No no no " , the loss from the woman she never met, the betrayal from the man she loves so dearly, she felt the agony of not just her breakin heart but her hope too.
Feeling hurt and humiliated she backed off as he tried to step forward, she felt insulted, running back to her room, she wanted to find a place where she can hide.
"Gungun listen to me it's not like that " Nihal runs behind his wife, getting in the bedroom he looks at her crying like a lunatic woman sitting on the floor, he crouched down try to take her in his embrace but moves back when she jerk his hand away.
" Gungun listen to me " He speaks in a soft voice but is stopped in middle when she slaps him, gungun looks at him with blood shot eyes, standing on her knees, she holds his collar
" Kyu kyu kyu kiya tumne..... Hmm pyaar nahi krte kya tum mujhse ab..... Mere sath hi kyu.... Achi nahi lagti tumko mai ab ...... Kyu kia "
She screams at him, fully broken and done slapping his chest she resist his touch while he tries to handle her, "gunu listen" In no mood to listen from him anymore she accuse him "moti hu isliye pyaar nahi krte...... Gandi smell aati hai mujhse isliye chod gye na tum...... Kyu please kyu"
"Esa nahi hai" He tries to explain but She looked at him with anger, sadness, accusations who looked at her with concerned and worried gaze, shouting and screaming made her slowly loose her consciousness making him loose his mind, hee patted her cheeks again and again calling her name but she did not opened her eyes.
He picked her up immediately trying to make her lay to bed but was horrified when he felt the blood in his hand coming from her lower portion, taking his wife he rushed to the hospital while his family and arushi followed him in worry for gungun.
