Cupcakes

Chapter 10

"Love is me watching you keep running back to him knowing he'll hurt you and every single time he did I've been there to help you. Every single each and every time you called I answered and I came for you regardless of the time of day. Every time you'd cry in my arms and promise you're done with him only for him to feed you the same bullshit story and you go back to him. I told you Paige! I warned you every time he's no good for you but you went anyway. Do you want to know what I did every time after he hurt you and you went back to him?" She's just staring at me with a blank expression.

"Aj I-"

"I cried myself to sleep at the fact you have no idea how much he doesn't deserve you. You have no goddamn idea how much I fucking loved you then and how much more I love you now. So to watch you leave out the door with that monster all those times tore my heart to pieces, so much so that I've considered not leaving my bed ever again. Damn it Paige you have no damn idea how my heart sinks every time I pick up the phone to you in tears crying because he hurt you. You say you're heartbroken well then I guess I'm heartless because every second you've spent with him I spent fearing he'll hurt you again. Do you know how it feels to watch the person you're in love with swoon over someone who doesn't love them? You have no idea how bad it hurts to sit and watch you call his name when he isn't even honest to you. The amount of hurt you've caused me is depressing, yet I solider through everyday hoping you'll realize what's good for you. Theoretically I don't have to put up with you right now.. But I do it because I love you even when it breaks my heart. I spend so much of my time on you that you're all I know these days. So to sit here and listen to you try to tell me Corey loves you is probably the dumbest shit I've ever done for you. And you know what makes it worse, you keep trying to deny the fact that you know what he did to you was wrong." I snapped trying to hold back my tears, unfortunately I can't stop them once they are bound to fall at some point. "You and I both know he isn't half as good a boyfriend as I could be to you, but hey it's like you said Corey loves you so surely he does all those things for you. Whatever I gotta go." And with that I got up and headed to the door. I just need to get away from her right now, I need John. I can't bare being in the same room with her right now all my bottled up emotions are coming out and I can't control it right now. It took me a bit longer to find John's locker room being I can't see past all these tears but I found it. "John! Open up I need you!" I cried pounding on the door. Seconds later the door opened. As soon as he opened the door I latched onto him for dear life. I just need someone to hold me as I cry.

"Woah Aj what happened?" He asked.

"I-I-I snapped on her Johnny! We were fine and then he showed up and ruined it all. And she blamed me and I snapped and then I told her." I managed to get out as he sat me down on the sofa.

"Aj slow down, stop, breathe. I can't understand what you're saying when you talk that fast." He cooed prying me off him to look at him. He then cupped my cheeks and whipped away my tears. "Okay relax calm down and then speak. Breathe." He then inhaled loudly so I took a deep breath and let it go. All it did was usher out even more tears, but oddly I feel slightly better. "There you go now calm down and tell uncle John what happened." He cooed putting his arm around me.

"She knows now." I breathed out.

"Wait and you left her on her own?!" He asked in disbelief.

"I never meant to say it but she made me so angry and I snapped. Then everything slipped out."

"Well then we gotta go find her I think Char is around here somewhere. I don't even-"

"No John she doesn't know about her, I couldn't do it." I groaned correcting him.

"Oooooh okay I see! Didn't think you actually had it in you to watch her heart break by yourself." He sighed in relief.

"Wow John thanks for making me feel even worse." I spoke flatly with no emotion.