Push me away

5

I went on and sang my heart out, looking at Noah every few seconds and smiling at him. I did my normal show and hung upside down, which caused people to cheer as they saw under my skirt.

"Yall are some dirty people. Cheering to see under my skirt." I laugh and get down. People laughed as well.

"You see, I didn't know Noah was going to dedicate something to me. I had my whole set list planned out and now I feel obligated to change the last song for tonight. You see. I was going to sing Bastards but I think For You is more fitting...don't you?"

They all scream and I look at Noah. "This one is For You..."

"She don't cry the way you cry. She don't hold me in the night. Like the way I held you. Like the way I held you. She don't fuck me like you did. Between tour legs like heroin. But I still want you. But I still want you."

"Cause all I want is you, I'm breaking all the rules for you. Breaking all the rules for you, no, no, no, no."

"All I want is you. I'm breaking all the rules for you. Breaking all the rules for you."

I smile and sing more. "Just for you. Just for you. Just for you, oh no. Just for you, just for you, just for you, oh no.."

"Just for you~ you know that I can't sleep, you know that I can't breathe without you~ you know that I wish we, you know that I wish we weren't through." I then looked at Andy and my smile dropped as he stared at me.

"She dint lie like the way you lie. Just to save me pain inside. When I'm with you, yeah, when I'm with you. She doesn't play those games you did, you'd always lose so I can win...but I still want you. But I still want you, no, no, no, no"

My heart was breaking as I looked between Andy and Noah. I couldn't handle it.

"All I want is you! I breaking all the rules for you, breaking all the rules for you, no, no, no, no. All I want is you! I'm breaking all the rules for you, breaking all the rules for you!"

"Just for you, just for you, just for you~ oh no, no."

"Just for you~ you know that I can't sleep, you know that I can't breathe without you~ you know that I wish we, you know that I wish we weren't through."

"Cause all I want, I see, I feel is you~"

"You!" I scream and look away from them as I let a tear fall. I calm myself down as I get ready to sing stain.

"Just for you~ you know that I can't sleep, you know that I can't breathe without you~ you know that I wish we, you know thay I wish we weren't through."

The crowed cheered and I looked back to Emerson. His face dropped as he got up and hugged me.

"What's wrong?"

"I couldn't even look at Noah directly and sing it. My eyes kept going to Andy." I cry into his shirt. He hugged me and sighed.

"You'll be okay. We can talk once we get off."

"We have time for the last song still... right?"

"Always."

I turn around and smile as Emerson sat at the piano and Sebastian changed guitars.

"So I lied...we have out last song of the night. As you know, it's been a few years since our mother passe...it's still hard on us but we get through. Anyway, this is Wednesday Afternoon."

Emerson started playing and I sighed. "Medications waisting time. The clock is ticking in your eyes. Veins are turning green from stabbing. Overturning the nurses habit. On my own don't know what to do. Telling God he can't have you. Much to young to leave me here. You got no grey in your hair.."

"Run away, run away. Please don't. Run away, run away."

"Cause the rains falling down! But the sku is missing clouds. Can't wash away our pain with a medicated smile. I try not to cry when I say you'll be alright. Wednesday afternoon was such a beautiful day to say goodbye."

"Said your parents are waiting. Made made apparent to ge a patient. Not the patient that stays longer, patient mother is my father. Said I'm okay out of fear, you're my mother don't disappear. You're my mother don't disappear. Your my mother don't disappear.."

"Run away, run away. Please don't. Run away, run away."

"Cause the rains falling down but the sky is missing clouds. Can't wash away our pain with a medicated smile. I try not to cry when I say you'll be alright. Wednesday afternoon was such a beautiful day to say goodbye."

"There's so much more I want to say, but I'm just happy you're not in pain. I'll make you so proud, with my brothers. Goodnight I love you mother..."

"The rains falling down but the sky is missing clouds. wash away my pain with you medicated smile. I try not to cry when I say you'll be alright. Wednesday afternoon was such a beautiful day...Wednesday afternood was such a beautiful day to say goodbye.."

"Hope you enjoyed! We will see you again! Good night San Diego!"