Hey, Jude

Chapter 2

    Ren and I ended up uh, frotting. And I basically kept going until it began to hurt him.

"Apologize. Or else I won't stop. Admit everything you did to me was all your fault." I said as I kept going as he squirmed in pain.

"J-Jude, I'm serious! I'm sorry!" He yelled as he hugged onto me tighter. I decided to stop. I actually am kinda shocked. That's the first time I've done anything with another guy, and I did it with someone I've hated my whole life.

I got off of him, and I tried to get up, but he pulled me back down.

"Please don't leave." He asked me. I just escaped his arms, and stood up completely, blushing like crazy from our uh... session.

"I.. I have to go, okay? My mom's back." I told him. I lied. She's not back. I just wanted to leave. He quickly got up after me and hugged me from behind before I could leave.

"Don't leave." He said.

"Ren, let me go. I'm leaving." I pulled away from him.

"Please." He begged again.

"Why do you want me to stay so bad?" I asked him as I quickly turned and looked at him. He just blushed and pulled me into a hug again.

"Ren, do you understand how weird this is for me? I can't just forgive you, let alone fall in love with you." I told him.

"I'll get help... please, ever since that diagnosis I just... I don't know how to deal with it, but I'm also relieved that I finally know what's wrong with me. Please Jude, I want to get better. I really want to." He told me. I kinda felt bad for him.

"You understand where I'm coming from, right? You seriously don't find this weird at all?" I asked him, tightening the hug.

"I do. I really do. It's weird for me too. I feel like an idiot just pouring out my soul to you." He said. He then looked at me and cupped my face in his hands, "Please, please forgive me." He said, tears began to form in his eyes. He kissed me again... and again...but then I pulled away again.

"Ren, I-i need to go, Okay? Let me leave." I asked him.

"Just... can we do one more thing? Please?" He asked me.

"...Fine. What?" I asked him. We basically just made out on his bed, and he was not shy at all. He was touching me everywhere. But once we were done, and I was putting on my shirt...

"Just spend the night here." He asked me.

"We have school tomorrow, and my mom is actually here now. She literally just called me, remember?" I told him.

"Okay... um, but why won't you uh, let me actually, you know. Why can't we... do it?" He asked me.

"I've never done it before, and i definitely don't want my first to be with you." I told him.

"Jude, will you please consider it? I promise I wouldn't hurt you, I mean, unless you want me to, but I'll be gentle with you." He told me, "wait, you're a virgin??" He said, a little louder.

"Yes." I told him.

"Damn. Well, I would like it if I could be your first." He said as he sat on his bed again, "well, I hope some day you can look at me without feeling any hate."

"I don't think I can ever look at you and not feel any bit of hatred." I replied.

"Oh really? Because you looked at me that way just a few minutes ago, when you were beneath me, moaning so loud." He said as he smiled a bit. I just blushed hard and looked away.

"Ren..." I said quietly.

"If you won't date me, can we at least try and be friends? Or fuck buddies?" He asked me as he got up again and grabbed my hand, laughing a bit.