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Marriage......

Finally that day came, of which I was not waiting for. Well, I'm marrying someone I liked, but not anymore. He is an ass. I hate my dad too for this shit. My heart is dying for love from him, from Elias, but also afraid of getting hurt. Again. I don't understand what I really want. My dress is full ready. All I have to do is get dressed which I don't want to. Ugh........... Why everything bad happens to me?????

I don't know what he is thinking. He already hates me and thinks of me as the reason of their break up. Asshole.

I got dressed and my dad came in, of course with fake tears in his eyes or maybe he really cried. I wished mom was here too. My dad and my mom got divorce when I was 8 or something. I don't know why but I think that he still misses her. She is probably with her boyfriend. And he is an asshole. Indeed.
My wedding dress was so pretty. I wish our wedding was real too.

On The Phone
Me - Look, whatever was announced, I am not marrying you. It's just so awkward.
Elias - Have you gone nuts? Whatever happened in that room, your dad heard it.
Me - Do you think so?
Elias - Hmm. I think we should just marry each and pretend to be couples in front of everyone. And do whatever we wanna do. What do you think?

Maybe he is right. We could just live our lives and do whatever we wanna do. I wouldn't need him for anything. My dad wouldn't hate me anymore. Everything will be fine.

I replied-
Yes, I'm ready.

Ugh..... I hope no one comes to know about our deal. I would be ruined then. I don't want that anything bad happens.
It was time for the marriage. I couldn't even breathe. I was so scared of this. I didn't understand if it's right or wrong. Even if somehow I came to know it was wrong, I don't have any chance to undo the marriage. I'm so fucked up.
I was walking down the Isle. Everyone stood up and clapped and then Elias turned towards me facing the crowd. He smiled at me. Maybe because I was looking so pale and he wanted to make me feel good or was making fun of me. My dad held my hand all the way down. Then he left my hands and I climbed up the stairs. I looked back at him. I was so scared of every second. I know my dad was no good person but he is still my dad. I never thought I would have to leave him. I Never envisioned this. Like Never. I would definitely miss him. Then I saw Carol. Like Carol Moore. That bitch who was dating Elias.
"What is she doing here?" I asked.
"I wish I knew." He replied.
Ugh......
All that things happened and then it was time to kiss the bride. Which means, El had to kiss me. Fuck. I should do the acting to faint.
"Whatever you are thinking stop. All eyes are on us. Kiss is the only thing we can do." He said.
I nodded and gave a fake smile.
That's all I could, couldn't I? GOD!!!!!
Our tongues were colliding. Our breaths were mixing with each other. We were so close. Then everyone clapped, finally something that distracted us, we would have not stopped kissing I guess..
After we kissed, I pretended to be happy. But I guess I was a little happy. I mean, I have always liked him. So, maybe this is what I have always wished for. But there it is, he doesn't love me. After the wedding, that party happened. But before that, I went back to his place. The party was held there. All of his stupid asshole friends were there who knew me very well. They once were my friend too.
Fuck. Isn't that him?
"What is James doing here?" I asked.
"Oh. He asked me that can he stay here, so I said yes." He said.
"Okay." I said, leaving the room.
He followed me into that room and asked me, "Is everything okay? Is he causing any problems to you?" Holding my hand.
"Yeah." I said.
He nodded and left.
God!!!!!! Dammit!!!!! I hate all of these. Suddenly I got a text it's said that, congratulations babe.
I was completely shocked I asked that person that who the hell it is.
"You forgot, I'm outside your home. Come." She said.
I am already so fucked up. I don't know if I should go there, but i did. I went there without having a second thought.
"Where are you going?" Elias asked.
"Nothing just need some fresh air." I said.
"Okay." He said.
I walked out of the door, seeing no one there.
I kept looking everywhere. I didn't see anyone.
Then I heard someone calling my name out so loud.
Someone was shouting.
Then i finally saw that person.
It was her.
It was someone who I'd Never excepted to come.
It was Caroline.