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BELLA'S POV

I don't know what to do. I don't even know if I will be able to sleep tonight. It's just so much for me. What if he knows that my dad is having a party. What if he ruins it? What if James does something bad. I'm scared af. All I can think is he ruining everything at the end. A text pops on my phone.
On The Phone:
Elias: Hi bells. I'm having a little party over, not like a part but something at my place. Would you like to join us? Me, Carol, You and you can also invite Joe. I don't have his number.
Me: Yeah. Okay. I guess I'll come. I'm not sure.
Elias: Please come. We are going to play - Never Have I Ever.
Me: Okay.... Let me try.
Elias: Okay bells. Please come:)
Me: Okay.
(*END*)

I guess I should stay. But staying means thinking of James all the time. And I don't wanna do that. Also i wanted to thank El. I guess it'll be better if I go there.
On The Phone:
Me: Hey Joe. I'm going at Elias place. Come with me.
Joe: Hey Bell. Yeah sure.
Me: See you there.
Joe: You too.
(*At His Place*)
The doorbell was rang by me.
El opened the door and said,
"Hey bells. I thought you won't make it. Thanks for coming."
"Yeah. Neither did I. But i made it here." I said.
"Please come inside." He said.
"Thank you." I said.
"Who was that guy? You were talking with in the restaurant." He asked.
I was surprised. I never thought he would ask that. Fuck.
"Do you smell something? Something burning? Or Jealousy?" I said.
"C'mon, I'm not Jealous. I'm your friend." He said.
"Yeah you are." I laughed softly.
Then I entered the room, where everyone were in the room. I had already asked Joe to come. I guess he is own his way.
"Hello everyone." I said.
"Hii." Carol said.
"So what are we doing tonight?" I asked.
"Drinking and eating." They said.
"But I don't drink." I said.
"You kidding right?" They said.
"Umm. No. Well leave this. Joe will be here any minute." I said.
"Yeah okay." He said.
"Till then let's play Never Have I Ever. Okay?" He said.
"Yeah of course." Carol and I said.
*Bell rang*
"Oh it's him. I'll go." I said.
"Yeah okay." She said.
I opened the door and Joe was with James. Shit.
"Joe. Ja- James? You here? Why?" I asked.
"Why? Friends not allowed?" James asked.
"He is your friend right? Why didn't you tell me that? He said that.
"Sorry. Just come inside." I said.
We walked through the corridor towards the hallway. I'm so scared. Why the hell is he even here? How did he know I was coming here? It's Macabre. I don't know what to do.
"Guys this is James. My old friend." I said. My face was pale and El noticed it. His face was full of many questions. I'm so worried.
We all settled down and the game began.
"Never have I ever kissed someone" El said. Everyone put their finger down but I was the only one who didn't.
"Don't tell me you haven't kissed." El said.
"Trust me, she haven't." James said.
El's face was full of rage. He was so furious. I was sitting beside him. I put my hand on his. He looked at and I told him to be calm. He nodded.
"Never have I ever had committed a crim." James said, looking at me with a smirk.
No one put their fingers down. Not even James.
"Never have I ever fell for someone who is already in love with someone else." I said. No one put their fingers down except for me.
Everyone was just looking at me. I wish i didn't say that.
We continued playing until 11. I came alone so now someone had to drop me.
"I'll drop you. Babes you go and sleep it's late." He said. And Carol simply nodded.
"Yeah okay. I'm not going alone." I said.
We were in the car. There was a moment of silence untile he asked,
"Bells, who is that guy?"
"I told you he is an old friend."
"Okay." He said.
I reached my place after 10 mins. He didn't say anything after that.
I told him bye and goodnight and went to sleep.
I'm still questioning everything. How does James know what I'm doing or where I'm going. I need to put some cameras now. If I'm stalked i should be careful. He is an ass. I have had a very hard day.
I wish I had Elias here. I love him. I do. The way he looks at me and makes me feel better and worries about me, no one has ever done that and no one will. I hate myself for not being the one for me. I'm just a very bad person. He would have never done that. Not even in his dreams. Meanwhile me, I'm just so stupid. I wish i never did any of this. He is so good. The way he talked to Carol. I was melted at that point. I also need someone caring like him. He is just walking green flag. I want him to know I love him but I'm also afraid of ruining our friendship. He is just so nice. If he could not be my life partner atleast he'll be my best friend. Fuck. Did he tell Joe about my past? James? Did he? He came with James. What did he do? How am I even supposed to deal with it? Shit. I hate this.. I hate myself.