The Real Meaning

A/N: PLEASE START THE MUSIC WHEN IT SAYS SO IN THE TEXT. THANK YOU!

'It's so quiet.... so dark.'

'Why can't I see? Why can't I hear?'

'Am I dead?'

'Voices. I can faintly hear them, so far away. They are calling me. They call my name.'

'Who is it? Why can't I answer?'

'I am surrounded by emptiness, lost in its infiniteness.'

'But... the voices get louder, they are approaching.'

„(Y/n), can you hea..."

'Doctor?'

„I am... alive?"

The (h/c) blinked one time, then a second one, slowly opening her eyes and taking in her sourroundings.

She layed on her back, staring at the green sky above. In between was a big hole, letting the blue moon sent a calming light down onto the planet.

„So beautiful."

A faint smile played on her lips as she watches the stars glimming in the distance, creating an unique sight even for her, who has seen the universe many times even closer.

„(y/n)? Are you there? (y/n)?"

Beside her layed the walkie-talkie which emmits the Doctors worried voice. Weakly she grabs the device and holds it beside her mouth, breathing in the now fresh air.

„(y/n) here... We made it."

She could hear them cheer, their happy laughters flooding the air and making the whole atmosphere even more breathtaking. They made it.

Her limbs ached, but she still wanted to stand up, still wanted to take them in her arms, still wanted to see their faces, to see her friends.

„I'll come over... wait for me there."

Throwing the gadget away (y/n) hoisted her upper body up, her arms tingle but in a good way. Carefully balling her fists she looks down at them and smiles.

„We made it."

Her whole body was covered in dirt, sticking on her clothes, her hair, limbs and face. She ignored the pain when she stood up, and even when it screamed at her to stop when she limped her way towards the Doctor and River, past the collapsed bodies of dead cybermen and innocent but also dead people who where imprisoned in them, one hand covering her left side and her body slightly tilted.

They waited for her in the middle of the battlefield, smiling at the oncoming girl. The Doctor stepped a bit forward, streching out his arms and grinning even wider when he saw that she was only about 40 feet away.

„Doctor...We made it."

Tears pricked at the corner of his eyes and he nodded, still grinning at his companion.

„Come here."

Without hesitation she obeyed and cautiously placed her arms around his torso, feeling his warmth and his tight embrace, like he never wanted to let her go again, as he pulled her into a hug.

Muffled he started to speak up, his face covered by the crook of her neck.

„I nearly lost you... again."

Warm liquid made its way down her throat as the Doctor quietly started to let tears flow. Faintly chuckling to herself she patted his back with one hand while the other gently stroked the back of his head.

„You are still such a crybaby, silly Doctor."

He pulled away. His face was red and wet from tears, but smiling again. He held her by the shoulders and chuckled himself.

„Thank you, (y/n)."

„Thank you? For what?"

„For surviving. For being here."

Her smile turned into a smirk when she ruffled his brown hair playful, the aching almost gone.

„Anytime again, Chinny."

„Oi! My chin isn't that big!"

Rubbing his chin in fake hurt his gaze softened by her laughter, and even River started smiling at the comment.

He finally had found his purpose, finally found a reason to fight and live.

(Y/n).

After her laughter died (y/n) opened her eyes, only to run towards River.

„WATCH OUT, RIVER"

The blonde woman turned around, just to see a lifted cyberman arm pointing his gun towards her. Her eyes widen, she couldn't dodge it.

Just as the laser should have hit her she saw (y/n) pushing her aside and getting the beam herself. River stumbled a bit but caught herself, (y/n) however fell down and layed sprawled out on the dirt.

„NO! (Y/N)!"

----Now you can start the music!----

Running over to her the Doctor turned her around so her head layed on his lap and he could see her face. Panicking he took her cheeks with his long, slender hands and stroked them.

„Come on (y/n), you can't die. Not now, not after all we've gone through."

She weakly opens her eyes, the (e/c) in them were shining like never before, they were just so warm and welcoming. A faint smile spread across her lips as she looked up into his sorrowful, green orbs which let out tears again.

„ Jeez Doctor you are crying again."

She tried to laugh, but it ended up in her coughing up blood , which was then trickling down the side of her face.

„Blood tastes awful as ever...."

„Don't strain yourself. River and I will carry you into the T.A.R.D.I.S. and there we will fix-"

(y/n) gently put a finger on his lips and gave him a look.

„We both know that I won't make it. Don't try to-"

She coughed again, this time even harder.

„....I'm sorry Doctor... I'm sorry I can't stay any longer.... I just wanted you to smile again."

He bowed foward so his forehead touched her belly. He tried to contain it but started crying even harder.

„(y/n), you were the most precious, kindest and lovable companion I ever had. Thank you. Thank you for the wonderful time."

A last time she heaved up her arms and touched his chest, where his hearts were.

„Do you know the real meaning? The meaning of why I travelled with you?"

The Doctor stopped moving, stopped crying and just listened.

„The real meaning... I wanted to show you happiness ,which can be found everywhere, counting in the joy which is always accompanied by pain and loss. Do you understand what I want to say?"

He shook his head, the tears blurring his vision.

„Doctor, I mean that you are never alone. Rose, Martha, Donna, Amy and Rory and everyone else..."

She patted the spots where her hands could barely hold themself.

„...we are all right here. We will always be there, guarding you and wanting you to be happy."

Now tears also appeared in her face, she tried to fight them but she ended up just giving him a last smile while she let her arms fall.

„Doctor, we all..."

She closed her eyes and breathes out, the smile still staying .

„...we all love you."