A Madhouse diary - straykids fanfiction

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Entry no4:
Nam Y/n
01/01/0000
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It's been about a month since lily left, after a week of not seeing her you had grown overly worried and that kinda set you back on your healing journey.

After confirming with people with seungmins help you had figured That she was in a hurry to leave with a manager she must've been too excited to even say good, even if that Hurt, you were happy she got to finally leave to pursue her dream under her new managers care.

Seungmin made sure you were not lonely at all, which you gravely appreciated, you weren't so sure what you guys now counted as as you never discussed your labels, maybe you were just friends, ongoing friends?, friends with a little pizazz?, makeout buddies? A situationship? It all was unnecessarily frustrating but you intended to make the most of it though. You've already lost one friend,  you weren't sure when you'd lose the other as you noticed that seungmin was getting better too, he could say a few sentences altogether now, although he still struggled it was better than not speaking at all, you were happy for him but also you couldn't help but feel sad.it was selfish really.

"Y/n-ah, can we , do it again?" Seungmin whispered after a while of you two just cuddling when he had snuck you into his room.(which wasn't the first time.) He stood up with a smile slowly taking off his shirt.

Looking up at him, your eyes trailed across the contours of his physique. His strong legs,chiseled abs, those sinful shoulders, and his playful, puppylike , beautiful face, how could you say no?(also kinda felt like you couldnt)

You moved closer to Seungmin, and wrapped your  arms around his neck, pulling him closer to you,  the two of you slowly connected your lips in a passionate
embrace.
Your lips connected, tongues intertwined in an unabashed dance.

You felt Seungmin’s hands
trail up and down your body, resting playfully on my behind. He  squeezed your cheeks, making you
gasp softly , As you did, you felt him slip his tongue deeper, dominating your mouth.

"They weren't lying when they said you tasted sweet" he chuckled under his breath before diving back in not giving you much time to breathe.

After such a long time waiting to be in his hold, you can finally feel his soft, milky skin in my grasp.
You looked up to his chocolate  eyes, eagerly and impatiently waiting for him to take you as you panted softly.

"Seungmin... please" you begged whilst out of breath, He continued chuckling as he gently brought his hands up to your flushed face, cupping your tinted cheeks and
coyly kissing your  forehead.

Gently, he brought both your bodies down to the mattress, you relished every touch he made and how his weight pinned you down. You  continued to kiss for some time while your hands rubbed along each other.

Soon, he  began to remove your clothing.blushing, you savored your  reward of Seungmin's bare chest
gracing your eyes. Snapping out of your daze you looked up at his haze filled eyes.

"I..." you stuttered "Seungmin, I do think I'm ready for this" you said hesitantly and you swore you saw something dark flash in his eyes.

"What's wrong?" He asked "you wanted this like a second ago" he pointed out before leaning closer to you and planting a kiss at the corner of your lips making your breath hitch.

"I won't hurt you"

"I know...I'm just not ready–" you said and he huffed a bit with irritation "what are you afraid of" he scoffed , his hand trailed up to cup your cheek as the other supported his weight above you "it's not like you're a virgin so you don't have to worry about it hurting" he said and you couldn't  help but feel offended because it wasn't like you chose to not be one, he of all people should know that.