Cardinal Sins (Sequel to ARS) Jason Todd x Roy Harper x fem!reader

Through Me (The Flood)

song by hozier

You thought, perhaps if Jason could get past what Bruce did to him in the garage, with him having forgiven Bruce in the past for far worse, that maybe you could try to forgive your parents. When you bring this up to your partners, however, you're not met with the support you'd been expecting.

"You know you don't have to make up with them, right?" Jason asks.

The three of you are currently cuddling in bed after having put a petulant Lian down for a nap. The poor little thing was so tired that she didn't even realize just how tired she was until her head hit the pillow six pages into her new favorite book.

"Yeah," you shift to face him so now your back is flush against Roy's chest with your front is pressed against Jason's, "but, I mean, both of you guys have tried to make up with your parents." You shrug. The 'you always make up with Bruce' doesn't quite leave your lips, but you know both of them must be thinking it as well. "Maybe I should try to do the same."

It's quiet. Neither of them had expected this when you led them to the bedroom mere moments prior, but you can't deny that it's been weighing heavily on your chest. Especially after that luncheon yesterday.

"Some people don't deserve forgiveness," Roy replies cautiously. His soft hands trace up and down your arms, as he and Jason have a silent conversation through their eyes alone. Though you could easily follow along with the nonverbal conversation, you're far too tired. Yesterday had drained everything out of you.

"And what if one day that applies to you? You wouldn't want anyone to try to forgive, anyway?" you ask before you can think better of it. "Bruce said there's no redemption with certain people. I get that, but there's no redemption if you never try."

"But you have tried," Jason says.

"It was the heat of the moment!" you exclaim, trying to reason against the words that have been streaming through your head for the past few days. "Now that everything has calmed down, it could be different," you trail off, sounding unconvincing to even yourself.

"At the end of the day, you're the only one who truly knows them, so you know what's best," Roy says. It seems like he's said this before because Jason's eyes flash with familiarity. "Just don't forget you have other family."

You sigh, taking in his words, "Yeah, I have you guys and I love that, but-"

Before you can finish, Jason cuts you off. "Bruce considers you one of his own. Has for a while, too," he admits with a slight grumble. The grumble isn't from anger, you know that the entire subject makes him uncomfortable and you know it must've been hard for him to tell you. Regardless of what Bruce said in the Batcave about you being one of them, Jason's words make it all seem real.

"How do you know?" you ask. You don't want to push the subject too much and risk upsetting Jason, especially after what happened in the garage, but you need to know.

Jason clears his throat and quickly focuses on anything but you and Roy, "Told us while you were..." He can't even bring himself to say the word. "While you were gone."

"Oh," you reply dumbly.

You don't know what to do with this information, all things considered. You've finally, officially, been included in the Bat Family, but at what cost? You still don't even know how Jason can face Bruce after the blatant disrespect Bruce showed him in the garage. It's a double-edged sword. Acceptance at the price of everything secure you've known shifting into something that makes you feel like maybe you've never known Bruce. The answer only makes you question everything even more than before.