Beyond Reality

NAVIGATING

You know (well if you don't know...), naah, forget it.

tell me I have pretty eyes, tell me they're like cats', tell me_

' why are you looking at me like that? '

really?

I hiss rolling my eyes and start to walk ahead, he's just like them...environment isn't part of it, boys are just going to be boys.

I stop suddenly in my pace and turned to him

Struck he halts... 'what'

I shake my head, it's hopeless.

'Forget it 'I say under my breath.

What was I expecting? Was I expecting more? Orr. What exactly?

Maybe I'm getting ahead of myself like I was doing with Demi.

don't talk to me and he never did

I wanna tear up when I remember that a girl told you not to talk to her and you 'don't?'

Yeol paces hurriedly to me.

' what' I eye him not smiling, still pissed about what happened earlier.

'shh, we're in the library' He puts his index finger on his lips, I look away, quickly, taking a seat before I get charmed again.

I unzip my bag 'did I say that out loud?' I ask, no one in particular, I take a glance at him, not him either.

He takes a sit next to me 'yes you did'

I'm going to avoid making eye contact with him for a while for reasons known to me.

'I wasn't talking to you'

He unzips his bag and takes out his books, ' you talk to yourself more and more these days' He looks at me, I can tell when someone is looking at me when I'm not.

' get used to it ' I breathe out.

ask me if I'm good, ask me why I'm like this?

' I'm used to it '

I'll get used to this too. I breathe out.

I take out my phone to finish watching the episode I was on.

' you didn't come here to read did you?'

' as you can see' I shrug.

I check my bag side for my ear buds, shoot ,Ileft it in the hostel, I look at him, ' no ' I shake my head I'll justwatch it like I sometimes do : turn down the volume and read the subtitles.

' what if they have no subtitles ? '

I don't want to talk with you...

' I understand their gestures '

'cool'

Irked, I sit up and tell him ' don't say that to me' . Him sayingthat reminds me of him.

I shove my hand into my braids.

' you have practice don't you? '
'
He nods ' yeah '

I nod too ' you better get going '

His phone beeps, a message , I'm sure. 'Yeah' he starts to pack his books back in hisbag ' enjoy your movie '

I just nod.
I watch him leave, with mixed feelings sailing.

I sigh.

pushing everyone away

'that's not true!'

' you're in the library?' The girl nextto me cautions.

'sorry'

I better leave. I start to pack my books.

Argh, why am I like this today?

My phone beeps, I check it out, it's Chris.

' left my water bottle in class, could you bring it for me?'

Sure.

The girl who cautioned me earlier peeps. 'you're done reading already?'

Do I have to answer that?

I grab my bag and walk away.

No.