Beyond Reality

OVER BOARD

I glare at Yeol,smiling as that girl spoke to him. Did he ever smile while we spoke, that broadly ?

Professor Wang drones on , discussing some theory. I'm tuned out, my anger is simmering.

Class is over, I pack my books fast and head to the library.

' I gotta go ' I heard him tell her after I walked past his front.

I know he's following, so increase my pace.

I used to like the library, I did yesterday, not today.

Calm down.

I exhale.

I bring out my books, I look over the barricade, he's still checking in.

Now, I don't feel like reading, or sleeping, or watching a movie or studying.  Studying ?

I don't study in the library, I come to read - books, novels.

He comes over, says nothing. Sits at the other side when we can actually sit together and share one table.

I shake my head.

I take out my phone to play the most boring game ever, turtle divo.

Why did I download it when i know it's boring , because of times like this.

Surrounded by stacks of books, the air was filled with the scent of paper, musty aroma of old books wafted from the shelves.

My mind darting to the scene from earlier.

I look over the barricade , expecting him to notice me, look up and smile at me and change seats.

But Yeol was engrossed with his studies, Oblivious to my presence, I feel like I'm unserious.

My mind began to whirl. Doesn't he know I'm here or he's pretending not to, he does not notice ?

' ahnirae?' I say sarcastically.

He looks up at me. ' What?' He asks.

I scoff and return to my seat. My session would end in 10 minutes, so I just had to wait for 10 minutes.

' Remi, what's wrong ? ' He comes over looking concerned.

Too late, my anger was already fueled by his obliviousness.

I have no intention to answer him but then ' Yeol, ssigeomhamnida '

' What?'

I turn and face him directly ' hamggekajugehayeyo'

He chuckles.

' Do you think I'm joking ?' What does he take me for? ' shibal! ' I cuss eyeing him.

His expression turned serious.

' You want to know what's wrong ? ' My voice low not to attract attention ' nareulijeorangshinda'

He's speechless, I can't tell if he's surprised by what I said.

' nadonadoyeyo'

' sorry ' He says finally.

I scoff ' sorry ?'

At this point, sorry can't cut it. ' ya,joeunigeoljomkkeojyeol '

The library patrons and those in the library at starting to stare, I don't like this ,I feel uneasy ,all eyes on me.

He caused all this.

Uneasy I start to scratch my nails.

' Remi_'

' Don't ' I'm being careful not to raise my voice.

I can see the security with the patrons, the whispering increasing.

' aiish' I cuss under my breath.

I start to pack my things before security came over.

He goes to his space too to do the same.

I walk out the back door, not minding the gazes.

Few metres away from the library, I halt and turn facing Yeol.

' see what you caused back there?' I shove my hand into my hair pissed. ' Everyone will start to think I'm crazy all thanks to you '

' I'm sorry '

What's he apologising for.

I eye him ' Stop telling me sorry '

I start to pace around, what if someone was taking a video, Remi you've messed up!!!

I look at him, angry.

' calm down Remi ' He tries to grasp my hand.

' Don't touch me !' I jerk away ' You don't get to comfort me after ignoring me and letting all these happen '

He frowns, shocked.

I storm off, leaving him behind.

Glossary

. ahnirae : really ?

. ssigeomhamnida : I'm extremely annoyed.

. hamggekajugehayeyo : Let's just end this.

. shibal : Damn.

. nareulijeorangshinda : I'm tired of this.

. nadonadoyeyo: I can't take this anymore.

. ya,joeunigeoljomkkeojyeol ' : Hey, sorry can't cut this.