Queer ➸ OT4

Prologue

(the art is by irv-astshark on deviantArt!)

"She's kinda hot, right Mikey?" Luke asked, pointing to some random girl.

"Huh? Yeah, I guess she has nice hair." The boy with the bright red hair nodded, looking back to his phone. He didn't really get all this sexual attraction stuff. He was actually starting to think it was all made up just to make him feel weird.

"What about that guy?" Ashton offered, gesturing to the guy playing guitar on a bench.

Michael shrugged, "Sure. Why not?"

"You know Mikey, you can say no." Ashton replied, before turning to talk quietly to Luke.

Michael looked back to his phone, google open.

'Define Asexual'

ASEXUAL

A person who is not interested in or does not desire sexual activity, either within or outside of a relationship. Asexuality is not the same as celibacy, which is the willful decision to not act on sexual feelings. Asexuals, while not physically sexual-type folks, are none the less quite capable of loving, affectionate, romantic ties to others.

He lowered the tab with wide eyes, scared one of the other boys would see. Everything made so much more sense with this.

"Guys." He said quietly. They all stopped talking to look at him. "I'm gonna head back to the hotel. I'm not feeling very well."

"Do you want someone to go with you?" Ashton offered, standing right away.

Michael shook his head, "I think I just need a nap." He let out a fake laugh, "I'll see you guys in a while." He waved and headed off.

Once he got into the hotel room, Michael curled up under the covers and went back to google. He spent over an hour looking over as much as he could.

This is me. He thought, sighing. How was he supposed to tell the boys who'd thought for so long he was the most sexual of all of them?

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Alright guys, I hope you like it so far. I don't think this is going to be a super long story because every time I try to do that I never finish, but I'll try my best because this hits close to home.

(Edited next part because I figured my identity out more :3)

Hi everyone. I'm Beth, I'm duragender (similar to genderfluid but I stay one gender more often than others) and demisexual with pan feelies (im actually this weird thing called platoniromantic which I can explain if anyone's curious but yeah) . I prefer they/them pronouns please!

If you have any questions I'd be glad to help you out, or send you to someone like muking who knows a whole lot about gender identity and sexuality! Also thanks to her for the idea for this, bc her story Definitions is f*cking amazing and you guys should definitely go check it out! (if you haven't already!)

Anyway that's it from me, have a good day/night/whatever time it is when you're reading this! 

xx Beth