Rants

Rant |4|

Topic: Struggles

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I don't know if this is a rant or a vent, but I don't have a vent book right now, so anyway

I don't know what's happening with my life, but whatever it is that is happening in my life, I know is not normal for my grades to suddenly drop.

I have been homeschooled for a long time and the point my family thinks going to school is gonna fix this is, really feels dissmisive, because it's not normal, they keep telling me I was so responsible before and that even if I procastinated, I used to keep up with my homework, really feels like they know there's something wrong, but just decide to think I can figure it out with time

That it is just a 'phase'

But right now, laying down on my bed, feeling mentally drained for literally no known reason, I just feel like whatever I say, whatever I that feels different, is just a phase, it's just my age.

So, even if I wanted to get checked, it just doesn't seem like a big enough struggle for me to go to a doctor to know what's wrong with me

https://youtu.be/EMpt40zNK-w?si=c-OtDvDxhlApzxaC

That woman's video was probably one of the ways I got closure with what I feel, and it's not exactly that she talk about ADHD, but it's because she tells you that if something's different, then it needs to get checked

Really, at this point, I don't know what to do because I don't want to tell my parents, my mom will probably give me a talk or something and try to make me feel better, because that's how she motivates herself

But right now, I just want to know what's happening with me, and having some talks just don't work

They're not bad parents or people, but I don't know what to do anymore

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