Becoming the Schools Sissy Slut

Chapter Five: The Party part 2- the come out

There I still kneel, with some of my precum crusting on my lips and down my fat, thick thighs, feeling utterly humiliated. I know I was thinking that crossdressing and all that is okay but this is different, every time I'm getting humiliated I get excited. This needs to be explored more. I can't keep hiding this and acting like this isn't happening. Something about humiliation makes my one-inch dick and me extremely horny... but why? And I like crossdressing, no used to hide it, it's okay, I also liked dancing the past few hours with Sabrina, feeling like I'm actually good at something. I don't know if Sabrina was serious about the dance team but maybe I join? I can explore if I actually like cross-dressing and dancing with my juicy booty and see the barometers of what humiliation I like and can endure before....accidents. I need to explore this somehow otherwise the humiliation will be worse and worse and more people will have control over me.

No thats stupid. why would I do that. That would lead to more exposure and if Marcus, Becca, and/or Bailey ever found out I would be utterly broken down till I graduated.

 I mean if Madison found out, it was almost like she knew I was thinking about her; I find her outside. Alone, leaning against Jonathan's shed holding a beer, and...crying? Maybe now I can finally figure out what's going on.

I go past everyone, feeling their stares on my cum splattered ass and walk to my step sister. Some empty nutri grain bar wrappers surrounding her, maybe I can get the real Maddy. She see's me walk up to her and immediately apologizes. "Look I'm sorry, I was super drunk and I didn't, I had a shitty day and was trying to pick my spirits up and-"

I stop her in her tracks,"whats wrong? It's okay. Sabrina told me your not like that and I- what's wrong? I'm worried."

"you don't even know me" she retorts, taking another swig of whatever the fuck Jonathan put in his mothers punch bowl.

"No-" i walk few steps closer to her. Still not fully letting me in. "but i want to. Ben also told me about you. How you stood up for him yesterday. Your a good sister."

"no I'm not"

"Your a good person"

"No I'm NOT!" She silences my consoling. "I am not a good sister or a good person. I've been lying to everyone, for years, I've been an asshole to Lilly, that's" she takes a deep breath, with tears in her eyes, "I'm gay."

I stand there, silent. Not knowing if I should console her as Ben or as Bianca now. Why did she have to hide that from us? From me? She starts to continue to explain.

"her name was lilly. We met at an away game at MetroVille. Though I'm not a good driver, fuck just ask Ben, so she'd always pick me up or we'd meet half way at Centralton. She wasn't fully ready to come out either so we just took our time. But god were we not sneaky, I mean, I remember I was with Sabrina and she came into my room and found lilly's underwear, which were these very sexy, laced up, hyper fem lingerie, like you were wearing today, nothing I would wear and Sabrina knows that so she asked me. And I just said they were my brothers. That he was gay and been trying stuff on and I haven't called him out on it yet. He's been "she starts to do a mixing of cry and laughing, "going to stores and- I just threw him under the fucking bus. I love him so much and I just didn't give to shit's about him cause I'd be exposed."

That's why Sabrina was so headstrong about me crossdressing yesterday. Because for her, I was already doing it in secret. That's why she thinks I'm gay. 

I start to try and console her again, having Ben speak through Bianca, "You weren't trying to do anything malicious. You were scared. It's okay to be scared." 

"Well now he's getting beaten up everyday. I should be home, helping him protect himself, being a big sister, that's my job now. I've been saying I go to Sabrinas house everyday, I can't deal with home, neither can Ben. Our parents are." She stops, and takes a minute. and if she's about to say what I think she's about to say, understandibly so. "Our parents met at a dv support group. I don't know how bad Ben and his mom had it, they refuse to talk about it but, it was bad for us. My dad served in the army corp and came back home. Gave my mother the world but she instead chose a bottle and a face to beat up. To keep her from hitting me, my dad would have to restrain her, hold her until she fell asleep. She'd throw things at him, at me, storm out and be gone for weeks on end, call us the cruelest things. I thought I was over it but, ever since our parents gotten remarried all that has been getting to the surface. And it kind of exploded on Lilly to and, we just had to take a break, I just couldn't. i can't be out right now with all this shit I have on me."