All the Tears you left on me

Chapter 2

Adrien

~ Hey Marinette, I was wondering if we can get that coffee now if you're available ?
~ Adrien ? Hum... sure why not.
~ meet me at the coffee shop near our middle school.
~ fine.

15 min later Marinette arrived and we got a coffee before sitting down on our table.

— Marinette...
— yes ?
— how are you ?
— I'm fine Adrien and you-
— no. I said before placing my hands on hers, how really are you ?
— ugh... I...
— is it because of me ? of our breakup ?

She thinks before responding.

— no Adrien.

I was reassured that it's not because of me but what's the reason then ?

— can I ask you...
— it's complicated.
— I'm still happy that the matter is not about me Marinette.
— don't worry it's not you.
— who is ? did you hang out with someone else after me ?, I tried again to ask her differently because I really want to know.
— to be honnest...

I waited for her.

— it was during you.
— excuse me ?
— Adrien you want my honesty, the truth is I kissed someone that I wasn't supposed to kiss at the first place.
— what do you mean ?
— it's complicated like I said... cause I felt like I was loving him in reality and not you.

It's incredible how I felt the same thing after that fight. Even if today I refuse to admit any sign to Ladybug.

— you'll probably be angry at me and I'm sorry Adrien, I was about to tell you anyway but you broke up with me before I do so...
— I solved the problem ?
— yeah.
— Marinette you're my friend, thank you for your honesty.

We smiled before I continue.

— by the way I... understand you cause the same thing happened to me.
— oh really ?
— yeah.
— that's crazy, was it Kagami ?
— no it's somebody else.
— oh okay.
— I know... life is bond of surprises.

We talked like this about one hour then we stepped back to our respectives houses.

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TW: explicit talking

Marinette

— Tikki it's incredible right ?
— yes Marinette everything happen for a reason.
— I still can't believe it.

Once I dropped my stuffs on the floor I let myself fall on my little resting bed. I closed my eyes.

— I miss Cat Noir Tikki.

I don't wanna cry but how am I supposed to live with this pain ? I've lost my partner , my love.
Probably my soulmate.
I don't even deserve to be alive, I tried suicide so many times. I'm useless, I should've die instead of him. But I'm still here and I'm so ugly.

Tikki took me out of my thoughts and she hugged me on my cheek.

— Marinette... I don't want to make you sadder but tonight will be...
— I know Tikki, the anniversary.
— will you-
— yes, I promised to bring him a bouquet of flowers every year.
— on the battle's area ?
— on the battle's area.

I was so tired that I slept immediatly after my conversation with Tikki, I woke up three hours later and created my bouquet with Tikki on my desk until night came.