All the Tears you left on me

Chapter 4

TW: Suicide, Self-Harm, Blood.
The next day

Marinette

— Marinette please don't do that !

Tikki was screaming to me, I didn't listen to her.
My mind was on Cat Noir.

— Tikki... I can't.

The medecines in my hand were like a magnet.
Until someone knock at the door outside of my balcony.

I hide as fast as I can the medecines, Tikki hidden herself too. And I get in the balcony.

— Cat Noir ?
— Marinette.
— hum... is everything okay ?
— no to be honest, I need advice.

I sit on my chair and invites him to continue.

— it has been a long time... you probably saw the interview hehe...
— sure... I did.
— you're the only one that can understand me Marinette.
— tell me Cat Noir.

He stops for a moment and pronounce a name that I know too well.

— Ladybug.
— something happened ?
— yes.

I was only able to be close to Cat Noir as Marinette these lasts moments.
I put a hand on his arm.

— you can tell me Cat Noir I'm here for you.

He inhaled and exhaled.

— well... I don't want to make everythings out but I'll stick to the basics.
— got it.
— Ladybug... lied to me about something terrible, I can't say what is it, she lied to everyone but...
— but ?
— I took it very very bad, it was kinda personal, I mean I was her loyal partner you know.
— yeah.
— Marinette.
— yes ?
— I love her but I can't forgive her.

A tear fell from his eye.

— Cat Noir...

He looks at me.

— did she tried to explain ?
— she tried, I rejected her.
— I saw that both of you were... distant and no offense but... I think you were mean to her.
— no you're right Marinette I am, I do this on purpose.
— why ?
— like I said, she didn't trust me, she never trusted me Marinette, I always was on second plan, I had enough about her lies.
— Cat Noir ?
— yes ?

I waited, I wasn't sure about if I should say this but I did it anyway.

— I think it's not worth it, I mean your rage, she is the gardian, you know I'm not here to tell you "go for that love" but I'm sure she did all of this for a reason, she probably lied in order to make everything good and less painful ? Even if it's maybe a bad movement actually, you both always had intense relation.
— how'd you know that ?
— what ?
— our relation, Marinette how do you know about what happen with Ladybug ?
— hum... I... just guess ! Cat Noir we all see you both in that way... I responded to him while being so nervous.

He stared at me in a way like "should I believe you?" but finally he believed.

— fine Marinette.
— Cat Noir I actually think that Ladybug isn't good.
— what do you mean ?