Barrister Babu(os/ts)

Vaijanti track(part-2)

Bondita could feel shiver running down her spine,she wasn't scared for herself,she was scared for him.

His face was completely devoid of any emotion,and it looked like someone has drained all his blood from his body,he was Paperwhite.

"What in hell are you doing here?" he snapped, eyes flashing with fury.
Bondita felt like someone was choking her,no one was physically choking her but the look on his face was enough for her to feel that.
He looked broken, terribly broken,is she the reason of it?

He said the first sentence in clear voice but now he was mumbling to himself,his eyes had lost focus.

He is my salvation and I his ruin', bondita's entire body was shaking violently.She wanted to shove this ominous thinking away but the more she tried,the more it made it's way towards her mind.

A surge of pain cut Anirudh off mid-sentence. His eyes crinkled and he had a psychotic smile on his face,as if he had no control over his face muscle,his whole body was slightly shacking.

Bondita's head was spinning,why was he acting like this?It didn't make him look friendly,in fact it feels like he is losing himself,his face became strained.Bondita felt nauseous,she coughed against the nausea, trying not to vomit. Did he not trust her,her?how was it even possible for her sakhababu to not trust her?

She could hear him mumbling under his breath,"I, ah, made a small mistake.a mistake,yeah a mistake,Just one." He held up a thumb and forefinger, gesturing smallness.

Watching him behave like a child in front of her was always one of her favorites thing.But right now,it broke her heart.
Bondita wanted to hold his shaking body but her body wasn't listening to her.She wasn't afraid of him,but she was afraid of what her closeness might do to him.Her heart was breaking thinking this.For the first time she felt like she betrayed him,her dying than seeing his condition would have been better,she wanted to tell him about all this through a letter,but now...

Anirudh thought he had developed a numbness,his brain wasn't functioning well,he was thinking,'i have a numbness that keeps most people out of my heart completely. I'm harder to hurt, even accidentally. it strained many relationship I had.But when it comes to her why can't I feel numb,how did I numb my feelings again,I have to close my feelings or else I will lose sanity,I should have taken those meds,I can't lose it, Anirudh you can't'

So it was her the whole time.
The smile that lulled its victim, the eyes that could exorcise the soul of onlookers and the touch, the touch that could freeze people as if it was a game of water and ice,she was standing in front of him with all her Glory,the things he didn't notice all this time is now hitching his breath,she has grown to be a very beautiful women.Vaijanti always caught him off guard.So that was the reason,he always felt she was near.

He now knows everything,he remembered everything, everything started to make sense to him,why he felt so effected by her antics,why her face,her voice,her doings bothered him so much,why she always successfully made him remember her.He understood everything,still, he dared.He dared to stand in front of her when all he wanted was to run away from there.

"Sakhababu?"she was slightly amazed that coherent words came out.

And her eyes met his. Worlds changed. Again.

What a fool he had been.Anirudh tiredly sat on the floor and broke out in laughter. He laughed so hard he thought he was losing it. He had been played big time, so the joke was on him!
An expensive joke..
A Terrible joke...
But nonetheless, a joke...

She was constantly fighting her nauseousness,'why Can't he see in my eyes? Can't he read my silence? Can't he see my efforts? He would always stand by me, hold me, calm me, support me and help me.If he wasn't there for me I wouldn't have been here either.He always understood my silence,is he doubting me,is he doubting his bondita?no never.He is my sakhababu,he will never doubt me,but what if he is,is that why he is behaving like that?'
That thinking alone broked something in her.Both of them were always at the verge of losing their sanity,and this wasn't helping much.
Bondita let out a scoff unknowingly,'why is it always her,why'