For What Its Worth...Lust

Rocky

A date. She was on a fucking date. With who? Who could possibly have her attention more than me. "Hey man. You look more pissed than usual. Is puberty finally hitting you? It's okay. Talk to uncle Nick". All I do is glare. Whether I say something or not he's going to keep going. Especially if he finds out my mood is because of Persephone's date. "I'm heading out," I say, rushing out the door. I need to talk to her and if i dont rush out now I won't be able to do it alone.

I need to keep it under control. By it I mean me, if I walk in there looking pissed she won't tell me what I want to know. A full name preferably, just to have a nice chat about how he should never be in the presence of my girl again. And if that doesn't click a more permanent solution is always available. It won't be too hard to make sure there is no way to find the body.

Walking in I see there's barely anyone here. Peresphone is just sitting at the counter, not paying much attention to anything. I walk up, the mere sight of her almost making me forget how pissed I was before coming in here.

" You gonna say something or keep staring at me like a little stalker?" I wonder how she knows it's me or maybe she thinks I'm her little date. "You know there's nothing little about me. I'd be happy to show you sometime"

"What do you want, rocky?"

Here goes nothing. Hopefully I will find out what I want to know. Mainly to make him disappear. " I heard you were on a date yesterday. Who were you with?" Way to keep it under control. You shouldn't be jealous anyway. You'll probably never see her again.

Fuck that. She's mine. At least for right now.

"Rocky i wasn-" "Whoever it was, he clearly isn't doing enough for you" She finally looks up.

" What did you just say?" "I'm just saying. With the way you react to me he clearly isn't doing something right. Maybe it's time to trade up"

"I'm sorry, and how exactly do I react to you? Trust me, I would know if I need to trade up. There's a reason why I needed the day off" She winks, coming around the counter. My jaw clenches. She has no idea what she's starting. There's only so much I can handle before I can't hold back any longer.

"Oops did I hit a nerve? My bad."

I stay silent and step closer. If she wants to play I'll bite. "If you traded up to the right person, you'd need more than just a day off" I whisper into her ear, inhaling her intoxicating scent. I can't believe we're in this position again. This time I'll get what I came here for.

" And who exactly would that be, I don't see any good options." Locking eyes, I wonder how much longer she'll fight this. The look in her eyes tells me it won't be too long. But from what I've seen she rather her head do the leading than her body.

Like magnets my hands move to her waist, her skin soft under my touch.

"Move". "Oh I'm sorry, will your boy toy be mad?"Like I would care. What's he going to do? Hit me? "Wouldn't you be?" Her question reignites the fire in my chest, my mouth moving faster than my head. "There wouldn't be anyone in the world that could ever step this close to what's mine." This was supposed to be just a game. But the way she's been making me feel, makes this seem like something more. I start to move my hands higher, wondering if she'll stop me.

"Rocky I'm serious" She warns. "What if I don't want to?" I really don't want to. "Then you clearly don't want those hands." I laugh internally. This girl may be the end of me. I give her a small smirk.

"Your confidence in being able to hurt me gets more and more amusing everytime sweetheart." For a second she seems distracted like she's too in her head. I decided to squeeze her sides to make her refocus. She looks up, and all I can think about is how soft her lips would be against mine. I start to move in praying she won't stop me. " We shouldn't" She says so quietly I almost didn't catch it.. "Where's the fun in that" Please god don't stop me.

"Excuse me, is there anyone available to check me out?" FUCK. I just said don't stop me. If I didn't think she'd be pissed I'd shoot whoever that is right now. Why can't I ever just have an uninterrupted moment with her.

" So sorry I'll check you out over here." I watch her check out the lady wondering if she's just as mad as I am. I would say by how quickly she moves she might be or maybe she's looking to forget the whole thing. After she's done I walk back up to her. I remember what I came here for."So your date. What was his name?" I need to know who and confirm I'm better. "Okay let's be real for a second why do you care?"

"I don't." I do and I shouldn't

"Then why are you here today? And tell me the truth. Like clearly your first time here wasn't too great for you. And I don't know about you, but I wouldn't keep coming back to a place where I could've died. You also know nothing about me yet you keep coming back here.Do you even know what we sell here or do you get off stalking hard working women who just want to help people escape reality and enjoy something for a change."

She's right. Normally I wouldn't have blinked twice at a place like this. I know nothing about it except that this is where I'll always find her. That the stupid drive is here and I could care less about finding it if it means I could spend all my time right here. But I can't let her know any of that. "Okay" I decide on the next best thing and start roaming the aisles. I pretend to look at the books on the shelves and pick some random ones so it looks like I know what I'm doing. "Okay? Okay what?". I ignore her continuing to make my point. After realizing I might not be able to carry more I head to the counter and put everything down.

" Um, you sure you want all this." "Yes" "Do you even know half of what you picked up?" I notice her cover up a laugh, while looking at one of the covers. I hope it's just her trying to throw me off. "Yes".

"Is that the only answer i'm getting for the rest of this visit" At this point i think it is. This is the first time I'm in unknown territory. "I'll take that as a yes. Okay your total is $459.80." How the hell did this come out to that. I didn't pick up that much did I? "What? Did you think books were cheap? Things that are this good are expensive." I hand over my card knowing this won't make a dent anyway. She has no idea of the lengths I'd go to prove a point. Especially to her. "Enjoy your purchase. And good luck". She says with a devious smile on her lips.

I hesitate for a moment, between that smile and me not wanting to leave. But I know my self control is running thin. Without looking back I leave her with a final thought. "Think about what I said. You could do better."

As soon as I got home I opened one of the books, not bothering to read the title or the blurb. Which may have been the biggest mistake of my life. I begin reading at a random page, that being my second mistake. I should've started from the beginning. And maybe I wouldn't be stuck with Nick reading over my shoulder. Which would have saved me from what he yelled after, in a room full of my men.

"WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK ROCKY! ARE YOU READING PORN RIGHT NOW!"

"SHUT THE FUCK UP NICK BEFORE I SHOVE IT DOWN YOUR THROAT!"

I slam the book shut and shoot up from my seat, walking straight out of the room. First thing tomorrow I'm taking these back. ALL OF THEM. Is this what my sweetheart has been happily selling this whole time?

Does she read this too?