Head Over Heal

07: Healing

POV(Rossi Elena)

I heard my father say you should have never born I always know I am biggest mistake in his life but he should not have humiliated me Infront people who don't know me as I look around, everyone is looking at me sympathetically, I see how they wish they had never seen this. I want to disappear or they will make me cry there looks are what I hate most I don't want everyone to be sad, I look at them I want to die with this thought I start running I don't know where I am going it feels like everyone is looking at me I am angry with myself how there words effect so much to me, I feel weak and helpless it's not like he is said this first time I heard this many time before it was from my schoolmates,my so called friends, father ,mother moreover, I have said it to myself everytime it's just I am a soul with so many wounds, people just look at me like a rude bitch but don't know that this so-called world of them made me this " Elenaaaaa" I heard Stella screamed which made me out my thoughts as I look at her she was panicking it's her anxiety attack as I look where she is looking I saw a car coming toward me it was in speed but in slow motion as I was paralyzed I can't move my feet I can't move, I forgot how to move as I was freezed at my place I was looking at Stella and as a smile came at my face that I might die here it's end for me not until I was dragged out from there to side path I look at the person" hey are you crazy wanna die like this without doing anything, what do you think what would happen to you would you be happier than"ni-ki scolded me like he is much older than me I looked at him annoyed" shut up " I said to him as I processed what happened I run toward Stella who was on road jungkook oppa held her as I reach to her I said in worriers" hospital now " I can't believe what happened now, she must have remembered about Alice how can I forgot about her truma, I am really worthless....I runned toward doctor and explained her condition he nodded and I came back to waiting room everyone was worried" what happened to her " inquired Jin oppa I explained about her bestie loss everyone was worried about what's gone happen " it's fine she will be okay " I said to them. more like telling myself I felt guilty about it too much than, everyone now was waiting as doctor came and said she is okay I was relieved he said we can take her she wake up it was just mild anxiety attack.....
we were in our bus i said to grandfather that take his car from the address I am not in mood to drive it, I settled in bus with everyone. all are so sad, oh we sisters killed there all joy that's why I don't often hangout with others it feels like when ever I get happy it's taken away soon like I don't deserve happiness " guys I am not dead neither Stella ... we planned to built happy memories" I said as I stand everyone eyes on me "but I know pain never heal it just we start accepting it to survive ... I know it's odd coming something like this from me but ahhh' let's enjoy" I said while scratching my nape "let's enjoy last hour in Italy "I heard sunoo say I nodded everyone cheered " guys do whatever you want to just let me have my beautiful nape" said suga we all luaghed at him " what will happen to your wife it's like you will prefer sleep more than her " j-hope oppa said as we chuckled " yeah I think hyung should marry with his bed " jimin said jokingly " he is already married with it " Jin oppa commented while laughing" you guys will never change" suga oppa said while smiling oh how i felt relieved after everyone cheered up bit I settle down on my site beside this jerk jungwon oh how I wanted to sit next to Stella but that bishh was already sitting with her love of her life jungkook oppa she replaced me🤧,  everyone was seating in bus like they came there was two empty seats beside the door cause we were uninvited so we seat together" are you okay??" jungwon questioned me oh never except this from him "yes why would you ask " I said laughing a bit I'm embarrassed but I don't need anyone to feel I'm embarrassed I don't want to see anyone right now but I can't say anything let's just hope to end better way " ahnn okay " he said smiling bit while showings his dimple I poke them without thinking twice he looked at me like I killed him " what?? " I questioned him " don't touch me " he said with some what Shuttering " hmm do you feel butterflies" I questioned him jokinly he shoot his eyes and glare at me " oh my I am scared" I said in baby vioce and start poking him on shoulder he get irrated, and sit straight while putting his buds in ear and close his eyes " sleep well baby" I said him while laughing and he sighs.... I open my mobile to play game I stand again up asked hessung " oye dude wanna Duel match " he was shocked at me I need to kill someone to get it out of my mind so I am going to do this hehe it's just my way to release anger he nodded aggressive he is excited we start match and gusse I won sunoo said " aye hyung you lose this easily " he siad hessung glared" anyways she is top player" he said and we spent time on phone playing games, after like hour we played some in doors game and laughed at the situation and failure of others again an hour of wasting energy we were tired and start taking nape and I also dozed of I even don't know when.