Head Over Heal

12: Inner thoughts

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" I need to go too restroom I will be back guys you continue" Taehyung said to them and left to go as Taehyung left the chat the 3 mem suga,hobi and Namjoon was left talking about there activity for future" Tae is gone for so long " Hobie said " I will go look for him " suga replied they both nodded and continue with there meeting,suga left the chat when he came out he heard two familiar voice shouting and then he went to Tae and he saw Elena and Stella leaving as they both left the bar they saw both of them going opposite"hyung go after Elena and take her to home don't let her drive she is drunk I will go after Stella and bring her home " Taehyung said ut  suga, he nodded and both left opposite side forgetting about the meeting they were in suga, suga went after Elena as he went toward her he saw Elena dragging her bike out of parking lot too road he chuckled and went toward her " what are you doing? " suga asked her. "dude I doñt want tœ cañçël ..." she took a break " my license to be cancelled" she said, being drunk the both were walking complete in silence for a while Elena spotted a park she went in throwing her bike " I thought she was sober " he said while making her bike stand as he park her bike at safe zone he went after her when he went to her he saw her crying while sitting in sea-saw " what happened now??" suga asked her " it's not going up🤧" she said " huh!?what?" he asked her again" this shit is just like my life " she came off of it and sit on ground and added " I don't know what to do I'm crying again when I promise myself I would never cry " she said while sobbing" it's fine you don't look ugly" he said to cheer her up " it's not because of ugliness I want myself to be strong but I'm so weak that I'm afraid to show my real self I'm so afraid to tell truth my father hates me cause he wants a son not me so I wanted to show him girls can do better" she sobbed again" I wanted to show him but in end that bitch destroyed everything she made me look like I was problem but along she was the one " she sobbed and suga don't how to help her but he felt deep connection with her because he knows the pain of anyone not believing in him but he knows she believes in herself more than anyone, he sees her like his past version" I never wanted my career as gamer but instead I want to be a programmer so I study hard but that bitch made me dropout " she cried harder than before" I will never forgive her she made my messy life more mess it was fine till she bully me and call my name I was okay because she doesn't know me my life if she call me slut , whore it was because I'm not and I know that but in the last she crossed her line by calling my father a mafia my mother a slut and on top of all she call Stella slut and pick me it... it trigger me she.... so I punch her and her nose broke as I was in boxing club that time and her parents were rich so they call school system and they all knew I was innocent my condition was worse but money wins as always they said there daughter want to be model her career ends then what about me they will made me transfer if I say sorry but how could I apologize i was not on fault I said I will never in the million life would apologize to this peice of shit she doesn't deserve and they made me suspend and they did all in there force not let me get admission and that night is worst night of my life I ..I got beatan up for the things I never do I want to end my life that day but I don't know how I survive" she cried her heart out like after a long time someone listen to her it was her first time she want to let all out without fear of thinking what would the other say " I never talk what happened to me to led me to that point I never wanted to I never regret my decision that day to I just let my past be past I want to die but sometimes I think I deserve this all because I don't know why I deserve that but I know I deserve no one love me and you know what I think love doesn't exist in my life I never trusted anyone I even don't know why I'm living I should have died that day I HATE MYSELF FOR BEING LIKE THAT " she shouted last part and then whispered" I want to be loved once in my life don't I deserve happiness" and then she was knocked out. suga feeling were unknown he was also crying silently and then he whipped his tears and got up made her stand and drove her bike too her house after dropping her he put her into her bed and covered her up and put the note to on her side table for her with hangover medicine