Head Over Heal

18:New Change

POV(Rossi Stella)

I changed my shirt and try hard to not cry it's like she stabbed me hard I went out of stall and washed my face trying hard too not cry I went out hoping kook is gone already I don't want to look at him I might tear up but my fate is not on my side gosh how I hate this why me god he came up smiling" let's go " I nodded" what happened??" he questioned" huh!...why?" I questioned him back bit of dazed cause of the incident early " you look sad and your face look annoyed" he said walking facing me and pointing at me " oh no nothing just I am tired" I said smiling bit maybe just try hard you can be strong I said to myself and start walking with him to car the ride was comfortable silent but my mind was opposite the things Lisa had said me they are just going again and again in my mind she said I'm fat she is right I'm she said I'm weak and she is right how could he like me, I was living in fantasy I glanced at him and he was so focused at driving I keep my head on window and close my eye thinking about what should I do I will change myself no matter what I will make myself better no matter what I will become strong but part of me want to be like I'm right now, still I will be strong no matter what I will solve my problems on my own I will never distract or disturb anyone no matter what happened I will do my things on my own " ahmm we are here " kook said to me I got out of car " thanks for driving me home " I said to him and bowed " why she acting weird today" he mumbled I clearly heard him but ignored and went in I opened the door with pin and went in I don't want to talk with anyone so I went straight and plopped myself on bed I'm tired I cover myself with blanket and strat crying but soon I stop I heard door open " bruh are you sleeping??" I heard Elena say I didn't say anything so she can left after some time door closed I removed my blanket from face and truned " what's up " she questioned chuckling" I knew you weren't sleeping ... what happened?" she questioned" not in mood elena " i said to her " duhhh your eye are red what the hell happened??" she questioned stressing bit " nothing I am tired" I said to her " no you were crying " she said " what do you know about me " I shouted at her she flinched" duhhh chill rest I think you got your period" she said and left I start crying from guilty that I shouted at her to take my anger out I am so bad and I slept eventually crying ...I woke up with swelled eyes " aishh this is so bad my eyes look so puffy " I huffed looking myself in mirror i changed myself in gym clothes and did makeup I went out of house and start my work out session with jogging after hour of running around I came back showerd and changed myself" oh hey feeling better??" I nodded to Elena"oh I made breakfast eat it before going out " I said to her she nodded" I will grab keys " I felt bad lying to her but I want to loose weight I will be better than that girl and show her she was wrong all along she came out and I smiled at her she went out and I followed her and eventually she dropped me at my company I bid her bye and went for day....

>>>Time Skip<<<

it's been a week now and I am straving myself I just don't feel like eating I was having proteins bar these days and I'm satisfied with result I mean in week I losse like 5kg and I am taking full care of my body but sometimes I feel dizzy it's side effects of straving anyways it's worth if I can slap Lisa hard with my body proportion and beauty I smirked thinking about it I'm on my way to meet rasebiae unnie she called me while soon it's off time I knocked at her office door" come in " I heard her say I entered and said " you asked for me " I said to her she nodded" tomorrow is important event for us " she said I nodded" so I want you to be stylists for that day netzins are giving good feedback on your styling" she said " oh thanks what I have to do tomorrow?" I asked her" you need to style Kim Taehyung for tomorrow he has Collab stage with IU " she said I nodded" oh okay " I felt bit dizzy as I was gone fall I hold chair" hey you okay??" unnie said rushing toward me. I standup again " oh it's fine nothing just balance losse  " I said to her with smile " you look so weak these days and it's not first time you loose your balance its been going for now days " she said sighing " if work is stressing you take break you can't go on like risking your life " she said I smiled at her reassuring" nothing happend unnie and I am fine it was just I stepped on my foot ... I will be get going now " I said to her still smiling and left I meet some enhypen member there " hi noona " said riki " oh hey what are you guys doing ??" I questioned them " going to eat " said jay " wanna join" sunoo said coming near " oh no you go on my cab is coming" I said to them today Elena has work she will be late so I need to go with cab " you look so weak Stella " sunoo said " what happened to you?" he added" nothing". I said to him " noona you look like Boones, where is my beautiful nonna" riki said almost sulking and I chuckled "he kid don't say that I'm good and nothing happend...gotta go " i said pointing at my cab and went to home....