One Direction's Dancer

If I Lose Myself

Harry's eyes wide looking at me. His big beautiful green eyes. I don't even know why I told him! I am just so stupid sometimes.

His mouth moved but nothing came out, he was searching for words but couldn't find any. He was surprised. I have just damaged my friendship. Harry is one of my best-friends! Danielle is going to have to knock some sense into me because I am so dumb!

"What?" He whispered. "What about Josh?"

"Pardon?" I asked astonished by his question.

"What about Josh?" Harry repeated.

"What do you mean what about Josh?" I mumbled.

"You and Josh. You seemed pretty close" Harry said.

"I kissed him but I realised after kissing you that there was nothing there compared to you" I answered quietly hoping he wouldn't hear, I just sound so stupid.

Harry just smiled at me.

"What?" I asked curious.

He just sat there smiling at me. His eyes just staring at me.

"I know I'm idiot ok, I shouldn't have said anything" I mumbled as fresh tears surfaced in my eyes.

In one swift movement Harry pulled me into his lap. He was sitting cross legged on the bathroom floor, me in his lap, his hands wrapped around me.

"I think I have feelings for you too" He whispered as he pulled me closer.

Our lips barely brushing each other's. Suddenly they touched and he didn't pull away, so I didn't either. We sat there kissing each other. The butterflies, fireworks and kick boxers in my stomach were making me lightheaded and dizzy but I decided nothing could ruin this moment.

*Bash Bash Bash*

"Kenz? Haz? You ok?" Josh's concerned voice rang through the door.

"What's going on?" Niall asked timidly.

"Please don't cry Mackenzie" Liam pleaded.

No matter how much I didn't want to I pulled away from Harry.

"I'm fine guys" I said to them through the door.

"Come out then" Louis said.

Harry let out a quiet frustrated groan.

"Come on" I whispered.

I got up out of his lap and held out my hand trying to help him to his feet, although my arms aren't too strong, I wasn't really that much help to him.

We separated our hands, wiping my tears and smudged mascara.

"Here" Harry said as he tilted my chin upwards and wiped away my tears and ruined make-up.

"You're ok" He reassured me as he gave me a quick peck on the cheek.

I turned the door handle and was startled by the seven boys standing outside the bathroom with worried looks on their faces.

"We're sorry, it was just a game" Liam apologised.

"It's fine Liam. I just cracked, you know I have been stressing about dance a little lately" I lied.

I hate lying to them but I needed to, I can't just tell them everything though. Everyone has secrets and my feelings are one of mine.

"I am going to take Mackenzie home" Harry said grabbing my hand and leading me out of the crowd so I didn't get interrogated into my 'stress' excuse, half of them already seemed to see right through it.