bad intentions - rafe cameron

17

Kazzie

John B's fists are clenched at his side as I step in front of Rafe, not wanting a fight to break out. Sarah and JJ just watch, wide-eyed as the scene unfolds.

"Kaz, I don't care if this was the last place on the island for him to stay. He's not sleeping in my house. I don't even want him standing in my living room right now." JB shakes his head as he speaks.

"John B. Please. The weather is too bad for him to go anywhere. As soon as it clears in the morning, he'll be out of here. Listen, I know you— none of you, like him. I get that, okay? But can you put your feelings aside for a few hours? Please, JB. Don't be the bad guy."

John B lets out a huff of frustration as his eyes shut briefly and his head turns town toward the ground. "Fuck", he mumbles under his breath. "Fine. But I don't wanna see him." John B points to the door of the guest bedroom, hinting for us to promptly leave the living room and get out of his sight.

I give him a nod that says thank you as I take Rafe by the hand and lead him into the bedroom. I shut the door behind us and he plops down on the bed, slumping and letting his head fall into his hands.

The past couple weeks getting to know Rafe have made it seem like I've known him my whole life. So many parts work together to make up the person that he is. But unfortunately, rage and recklessness are at the forefront, making up about 80% of those parts, everything else is secondary— but somehow I'm still here.

"What's going through your head?" I sit down beside him and place my hand on his knee.

"I just...I understand I did the shit I did to...to all of them. Some really messed up shit. Especially to my sister. But did you see the look on her face when I walked in? I mean she looked genuinely scared for her life. My own little sister. I never wanted our relationship to become so strained. I don't want her to have to feel that way when I'm around. And I guess I never realized that I gave a shit about becoming a better person until...well...until you." My eyes widen at Rafe's confession, still trying to piece together exactly what he's saying.

"I wanna be better, Kaz. JJ was right. I'm not someone you should be involved with, so I'm gonna be different. For you."

"Rafe...".

"No, Kaz, I'm serious. The drugs, the drinking, the partying. Everything was just a distraction. Just something to keep my mind off the fact that I'm such a shitty person, a shitty brother. And I've never said this to anyone before, but you...you make me want to get sober. To fix myself. That's all because of you. Kazzie, I'm- I'm...", Rafe trails off and I feel my whole body stiffen.

"You're what?" In my head, I know what's coming out of his mouth next, but I want to hear it from him, I need to.

"I...I think I'm falling in love with you, Kaz. I know it hasn't been a crazy long time but you mean everything to me. This isn't just about sex for me anymore. You bring out a side of me that I thought had disappeared."

I can't stop the smiling from forming across my face, making me glow with admiration as he speaks.

"You know, it's wild that you mentioned that, because at first I didn't want to admit it...not even to myself. But...I'm falling for you too. Despite all the bullshit and unnecessary drama we had to face to get here, I can't do anything about my feelings continuing to grow for you everyday, Rafe. I tried to suppress them. But nothing works to get you out of my head. From the moment I open my eyes to the moment I close them...I just think about you."

Immediately after I'm done talking, I go red. Not believing I really just said all of that out loud. That I actually confessed my deep feelings toward him.

"You swear? You really feel like this? Because I don't want to ask this next question if you're just saying all that to make me feel better after my spiel."

I choke down a gulp as I listen to Rafe speak, his voice like butter.

"I meant every word", I reassure him.

"I want you, Kaz. I don't just want to be your fuckbuddy anymore. I want to be yours. Mind, body, and soul. If you say yes, you'll have to work with me. I haven't been in an actual relationship in four years." He looks toward the ground as he explains, embarrassment washing over him.

"I'd like that. A lot."

My god, if 15 year old me knew that someday 18 year old me would be in a relationship with the Rafe Cameron, she would be freaking the fuck out.

In a moment of vulnerability, Rafe takes my hand into his. "Kazzie, I promise I'm gonna be the man you deserve. I will never fucking hurt you. Ever." He untangles his hand from mine, slowly lying down on the bed and I follow suit soon after. His hand cups the side of my face as he leans in and plants a peck on my lips, making me feel every ounce of love that he just confessed to.

"We should get some sleep, baby", he says as he brushes a strand of hair out of my face. The only response I manage to give is a nod before I roll over and turn off the bedside lamp, falling back into his arms and loving how safe I feel.

I'm confident that nothing will ever go wrong now that I have him. He's all I've ever wanted. We'll last forever.

"Kazzie!" My eyes jump open at the sound of John B's voice. I have no clue what time it is, but I know it's the morning because the sun's up.

"Shit, man. What?" I rub my eyes, still waiting for them to fully focus as Rafe now starts to wake up.

"It's your dad. There was an accident." JB's breathing pattern hastens as he lets the words fall out. Suddenly every bone in my body, every cell, every vein, is awake. Frozen in terror.

"Wh-what do you mean? What do you mean an accident, John B?" I throw the blanket off of myself and fully sit up.

"Drunk driver in a semi, ran a red light that your dad was at. He...he didn't make it, Kaz."

Helloooo babies, holy shit it's been a minute since I updated. I'm back. How are we feeling about that chapter? Shit is about to absolutely hit the fan in these next few! Just saw that we reached 5K! Thank you so so much to everyone for even reading one word of this project❤️