Finally back home.
One of the longest flights of my life.
But it was worth it.
Sev was being Sev.
He was a little more cautious.
He didn't go out without really double checking and thinking about the bigger picture.
He was definitely a better version of himself than before.
I loved seeing him like this.
He did things differently.
Definitely treated me better.
The things he does and has done for me would make you think there was no better.
But emotionally it is so much better.
It's like a breath of fresh air.
"Mama" He says as he wraps his hands around my waist from behind.
"Yes my love??" I ask to see what he wanted.
"Can I ask you something??" He asks.
"Yes baby go ahead" I turn around and look at him.
"Do you thi j I'm a good husband?" He asks.
I took a pause to answer.
Not in a bad way but to truly think.
I look at him.
"You are a amazing man in most areas of yourself. Your maturity with our relationship is not so hot." I say to him.
"What do you mean??" He asks.
"Meaning you're stuck in being a teenager. We're in our 20's now. You're partying like you're 17 again, which I'm not saying is a bad thing because black don't crack baby., BUT. Getting sloppy drunk??? Having me and Dj to go fucking find you whenever you get mad and decide to get drunk, or that whole bullshit with the weed. Grow up. Heal." I say as I stare at him in his eyes.
I want to see him be better.
He has to want it himself.
He's been doing good but it shouldn't have to be because you're scared to lose your wife.
"You're right" He says as he nods.
"Thank you for being honest with me mama..." He puts his head down a little.
I look at him and lift his head up.
"Hey." I say as I stare at him.
"Hm?" He says.
"I'm not leaving your side." I smile and look at him.
"But you have to want this for yourself and not just for me." I grab his hands and kiss him.
"But I don't know" He pauses.
"Don't know what baby?" I ask.
"I don't know how to take time and heal" He says.
"I'm still dealing with shit and consequences from years ago. I can't..." He says.
"That's why you agreed to being my other half. I help you when you're down. I help you heal." I grab his face and rub his cheek.
I could tell he wanted more.
He really understood this time.
It didn't go in one ear and fall out the other.
