(Kian pov)
As I got out of the shower, I saw Jc on my bed on his phone. He looked up at me and smiled. I walked over to him and said "I feel tomorrow is gonna be boring. What do you wanna do?"
He was staring at his phone focusing on his thoughts. I smiled at his focus and he finally spoke. "Well, we haven't done this yet. But maybe we should to...a gay bar?"
I laughed a bit and said "sounds cool. Ok let's do it then."I kissed him and said "well I'm tired so lets go to bed." He agreed and we both laid down together. I cuddled into Jc and quickly fell asleep.
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I woke up still held into Jc's arms. I stayed there for a little bit and then got up to go make food. As I was making food I felt arms wrap around my waist. I tensed up a bit and turned around. I laughed as I saw it was Jc. I kissed him and said "I'm making food but I'm terrible so you're probably gonna get really sick. Oh well, as long as we get sick together."
He laughed and said "idiot"
"your idiot" I said while smiling.
He pecked my lips and walked to the couch. "FUCK!" I yelled. Jc came running to the kitchen and saw me in pain. "oh my god what happened?!"
"I fucking got oil splattered on my arm!" I looked at Jc and he looked like he was trying to keep in a laugh. I glared at him and said "let it out." He laughed, hard and I wasn't. A little grin was trying to out of me but I wouldn't let it. He kept laughing and I gave up and giggled. He came over to me with his arms open for a hug. "Yeah right." I ran to the bathroom and closed the door. The dumb ass I was left the door open and Jc opened it. He ran in and hugged me tight. I laughed and hugged him back.
We both left the bathroom and went to go eat. We sat down at the table and starting eating.
We both finished eating and then I grabbed my laptop and started to edit a video I had made. As I was editing, I thought about the gay bar that were supposed to go to. And now that I think of it, where is there a gay bar around here. "Hey Jc, can you come here for a second."
He walked over to me and said "What's up"
"What gay bars do you know?"
"Well, I know one called 99 problems."
"What the fuck kind of a name is that" I said while laughing.
"I don't know, ask the owner" he said while laughing as well.
I rolled my eyes with a smile and went back editing.
(Skip to before club)
I went to my room to go change for the club. I wen't into the room and saw Jc with no shirt on and just skinny jeans. I eyed him up and down and said "DAMN!" He winked at me and then went to grab a shirt from my closet. I grabbed my black skinny jeans and a tank top to wear. I put them on and then my converse.
As soon as we were done getting dressed, we went out of my apartment and got in my car. As we were driving, we were screaming the lyrics of the song la la la by Naughty boy.
We got to the gay bar and walked. And when we walked in, there was a lot of boys grinding on each other, a lot making out, and some drinking at the bar. Me and Jc walked to the bar part of it and I ordered two beers for us. I wasn't gonna drink too much because I didn't wanna make stupid decisions.
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Jc was already on like his 10th beer and he got drunk pretty easily. "Jc"
"What" he said buzzing.
"You're drinking too much. Maybe we should go home"
"But we haven't even danced yet!" he said barely understanding him.
I rolled my eyes. "Jc please"
Jc got up from where he was sitting and grabbed my hand. He pulled me from my chair and led me too the dance floor. When we got there, Jc started to grind on me. I bit my lip and let him do whatever.
After a while, I had to use the restroom. I stopped Jc from grinding on me and told him I was gonna use the restroom. I walked to the restroom and used it. It was kind of uncomfortable in there. I'm pretty there was guys doing something in one of those stalls.
I was done and I washed my hands. As I walking out, I spotted something I thought I would never un see. Jc was...kissing another guy. I felt tears come to my the brim of my eyes. Anger rushed over me and I walked over there with tears rushing down my face. As I got to them, that guy walked back and Jc saw me crying. "HOW COULD YOU?!" I screamed. I pushed him on the floor and said "I fucking hate Jc, I hate you!" before running off.
Heavy tears we streaming down my face one after another as I was running. I didn't care about my car, I just ran all the way home.
I got to my apartment and opened the door. I ran to the bathroom and closed the door. I sat on the floor and cried my eyes out. Tears and tears were coming down harder every second. Did Jc not know that I loved him?! I cried for a few more minutes and then crawled over to the bottom cabinet. I opened it and saw a razor. A razor I haven't used in a while. I stopped self harming myself a long time ago, but maybe I need it again.
I stood up with tears falling from my eyes. I stared at myself in the mirror trying to convince myself that I didn't need to do this. Nothing was working. I broke down into heavy crying and grabbed a glass vase that was a decoration for the restroom. "YOUR USELESS!" I screamed at myself in the mirror and threw the vase hard at the mirror. The glass of the vase shattered everywhere and the mirror had shattered. I grabbed the razor pressed deep onto my skin. I cut down my wrist and saw the thick warm blood go down my arm. I made each cut deeper and deeper till I started to get light headed.
The last thing I cut into my arm was in small letters "worst mistake" before blacking out on the floor.
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